Can you honestly say “God, anytime, anywhere, anyhow” and actually mean it?
Fear has been settling in and at this rate it has started making camp. The unknown is a real reality for me right now and as much as I have always loved that, it’s hitting all the right places to freak me out.
I am 21 years old, I am essentially homeless, and there is nothing in this world to my name except for the 55 pounds worth of stuff that fits into my backpack. I have no clue what my life will look like or where I will be next fall, next month or even tomorrow.
Three years ago while I was in YWAM we were asked to pray about what we were hanging too tightly onto and what needed to be laid down at the foot of the cross. At that time the holiday season was just starting and all I wanted to do was be home with my family where I could drink all the hot chocolate, watch the Macy’s day parade, watch all the Hallmark Christmas movies and wear all the cozy clothes.
I was begging God not to call me overseas long term again. (HA)
As I was praying about what to lay down though I felt God very clearly ask me to lay my passport down. In this, I was saying “God, anytime, anywhere, anyhow.”
Fast forward now three years later and those same feelings have started to creep back in.
I am utterly terrified.
What if this isn’t it? What if this year just opens up a whole new door to overseas missions? What if I have to rely on support to live my life for even longer?
Can I honestly still say, “God, anytime, anywhere, anyhow”?
Today I know that I desperately want to have a normal job.
Today I know that I still love to travel.
Today I know that I love having a home.
Today I know that I have a heart for overseas missions.
Today I know that I have a heart for local missions.
Today I know that this is a daily battle.
Today I know that I will lay my passport down every day if it means that people are going to get to know Jesus.
Today I know that I can say, “God, anytime, anywhere, anyhow I am in and I will go.”
This world is temporary so why wouldn’t you jump into what & where the Lord has called you. Your own happiness isn’t going to further the kingdom but doing everything you can to serve the Lord and reveal His kingdom will bring eternal joy.
