Do you ever make plans with someone and just doubt that they are even going to happen? Ever heard the phrase “I’ll believe it when I see it”?
I’m not sure why but I have been going through some of the biggest seasons of doubt in my life lately. Doubting friendships, doubting people, doubting God.
Now, I wasn’t aware that this was the cause until honestly moments ago but those doubts have left me feeling so empty and so alone.
Do I have friends to turn to when I need someone? Will I ever be able to accept that I can’t make everyone happy? Am I actually going to walk away from my job to live out of a backpack for 11 months in a bunch of other countries? Am I really going to step so far out of my comfort zone?
These questions can be toxic and they can (and will) keep pulling you so far down into a pit that it’ll be impossible to climb out of it on your own.
“There is no way I can ever raise almost $18,000”
“What if I just gave up?”
“What if I don’t make it?”
“What if I just take it all back and stay where I’m at?”
But what if..
What if God really does provide the money?
What if God really does want me to do this?
What if this is the greatest decision of my life thus far?
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A few months back I was driving home from church and I was just really struggling with the concept of raising such a large sum of money. I just remember calling out to God and saying, “God, I know that if you want me to go this money is going to come in..I don’t want it handed to me though. I want to have to work for it.” Almost immediately I knew I was going to regret that though..I knew God was going to make me work for it.
I asked for that..I asked God to make me work for it and yet when He does, I start doubting that this is really where He is calling me OR that He really could provide this money.
You know what though?
All of those doubts, those are all just excuses. We were never called to stay in our comfort zone.
God has no limit. He has no equal. He has no rival. Nothing can stop Him.
So why do I keep thinking this will? Why do I believe the lies the enemy is feeding me? That is really all they are. They are lies.
If we keep putting God in a box, we are missing out on all of the things that He really has for us.
I have good news for you though folks.
Just like in the book of Jonah, when Jonah ran from God’s calling. God won’t ever stop chasing after us. He won’t ever stop trying to seek us. We just have to be willing to receive what He is calling us to.
Are you listening to what God is telling you?
Are you willing to follow where He has called you?
