Alright,
so if any of you read my testimony on my I’m
leaving Behind…Nothing??? blog post, you might be questioning what
my relationship with my mom is like today.
If
I were to sum up my relationship with my mom in one word it would be — ROUGH.
It may be rough, but God is TOTALLY at
work in our relationship.
From
December 2007 until October 2009 my mom and I did not say a single
word to each other. For a momma’s girl, that is one of the hardest things
E.V.E.R.
In
December 2009, I had the opportunity to spend a day with my mom, my cousin, and
my Aunt. We had lunch together, went shopping, and played card games.
This
meeting was literally in God’s perfect timing for us to see each other again. I
had been praying for God to lead us into a “semi-normal” relationship
again. I loved my mommy and I wanted her back in my life. From that day forward
everything has pretty much changed in my life.
I have my MOMMY back in my life, and
though it’s rough I have her!
Spring
semester of 2010 my mom, aunt, and cousin came to my school (for the first time
ever) to visit for a weekend. It was a fun-filled family packed weekend of
playing games, swimming, talking, and spending time together. It was awesome to
be able to introduce my family to some of my college friends and to be able to
spend time with them.
While
I was in Kenya this past summer, I realized that God had my mom in HIS hands.
Through my cousin’s facebook, I found out that mom might have cancer again.
SIDENOTE: When I was
in 8th grade, the day before Christmas, my mom was diagnosed with
Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. She went through three months of chemotherapy and one month
of radiation. My freshman year of high school, we found out that she was in
remission.
Needless
to say, the thought of my mom having cancer AGAIN scared me, it scared me a lot.
Luckily, I was able to call my mom’s work and I found out that she was not
there due to having surgery.. I found out that she had a biopsy done to
determine if she had cancer again. My heart was broken. I needed to know how my
mom was doing every day. I needed to know if she was going to be okay. I needed
to know the details.
God
had other plans…
I
realized through this experience that I needed to trust that God has my mom in His Hands. There is not a single thing that I could do to
heal my mom. There is not a single thing that I could do to literally be there
for her when I was literally halfway across the world.
All
I could do was pray.
All
I could do was have others lift her up in prayer.
All
I could do was put my mom’s health in His Hands.
All
I could do was trust that God was going to heal my mom.
I
found out that the biopsy results came back and that my mom was FREE of cancer. God taught me a
huge lesson this summer in knowing that He is in control and that He is at work
in my mom’s life and in mine. He taught me that there is literally nothing that
I can do without Him. He healed my mother. It’s all about
Him.
On
November 17th, I left Trine University 5 days early for Thanksgiving
break. 5 days early so that I would have the opportunity to see my mother.
On
Saturday, I was able to spend the ENTIRE day with my mother. We were able to
spend time together shopping, eating, and talking. I was so blessed by just
being able to spend a day with my mom.
I
realized that this was the first day it was just my mom and I together since
2007. FOUR YEARS. It took four years for me to be able to spend one entire day
with my mom.
Seeing
my mom is not easy. Due to the non-existent relationship that I have with my
dad and my brother, my mom will have to “sneak” around in order to see me. It’s
rough, but God blesses me so much when my mom and I are able to spend time
together.
I write this blog post to give you a
glimpse into what my life is like. Also, I want to encourage you to invest time
in your relationships with your parents.
If
your parents are here on earth and you can pick up the phone and call them to
talk about life, you are blessed.
If
your parents call you and you don’t want to talk to them, pick up the phone
because you are blessed to be able to talk to them.
If
your parents spend time with you, you
are blessed.
If
your parents are there for you when you need them (or even when you don’t), you are blessed.
If
you have somewhere to go home to during breaks, you are blessed.
Don’t take for granted what the GOD of this universe has blessed you
with.
