(SIDENOTE: THIS BLOG IS PRETTY LONG, BUT SO WORTH
THE READ TO SEE WHAT GOD SPOKE TO ME TONIGHT AT LAUNCH)
I’m not sure how familiar you
guys are with spoken words, prophesy, or visions. To be honest, I’m not so
familiar with them myself. The world race believes wholeheartedly in this and
essentially they embrace the gospel. They embrace what God is speaking to us
through others and what we need to speak to others. I love it! It’s something I
have never been exposed to before with Christian relationships, but I am
excited to see how God uses me and others to speak life.
Launch officially started
today!!!
I am officially a world racer
today!!!
During our worship session
tonight, God was speaking to me through other people. He spoke to me in ways He
has wanted me to hear, but I have been resistant.
First off, worship was awesome
tonight. I’m the type of person to throw their hands up in the air, sing at the
top of my lungs (a joyful noise only Jesus appreciates, if I might add), and
give Him my all. Worship is one of my favorite parts about church. I could have
worship music playing all day. Needless to say, God provided me with songs
tonight to set my heart on fire for Him. When I was packing for The World Race,
I had Set A Fire by Will Reagan and United
Pursuit Band on repeat for three hours during the process. That was the
first song that was played tonight. God ordained? I think so! The other two
songs that we sang were Fill Me Up God by
United Pursuit Band and Give Me Faith
by Elevation Worship. Fill Me Up God really touched my heart at training
camp and Give Me Faith has given me such a passion for faith in Him. God spoke
to me tonight during worship with these three songs. I raised my hands and gave
it all to Him.
While Give Me Faith was
playing, my team leader, Courtney Duron, came up to me to pray
over me. A spoken word from God and He was telling me that He was going to soften my heart in the next 11 months. Courtney did
not know what that meant, but she was being obedient to what God was laying on
her heart to share His words with me. Honestly, I’m not sure what this means
either, but I know that God will show me in the next 11 months, and I’ll be
sure to share it with each of you.
After worship and a powerful
message from my brother Sean, a girl named Julie walked up to me and told me that I am
fierce. She told me that I am going to
be doing big things for my team. She told me that I am going to be doing big
things on my squad. I’m certain the most important thing she told me was to be
myself. I have been on three summer long missions trips and I feel like I
was not who I really am on them. Sometimes I am not who I really am around
other people. I need to embrace who He has created me to be and to let my light
shine. God has gifted me with an outgoing, crazy, rambunctious personality and
I honestly need to not worry about what others think about me. I need to be
called into the woman of God He has created for me to be. I need to be who He
has created me to be.
Also after worship, I was
talking to my teammate Meagan Kelley’s mom, Karen,
she was talking to Courtney and I telling us that God is going to do great things. She specifically mentioned that God is
not going to just be doing big things in us while we are on the field, but that
He is going to be doing stuff at home. That God is going to do amazing things
in our families. Most of you reading this probably know my story, but if
you don’t, my relationship with my family has been pretty rocky in the last
five years. I haven’t talked to my dad in 5 years and my relationship with my
mom is good, but so hard. I wrote a blog once that really describes well my
relationship with my mom, click here to read
it. Having Karen speak those words over us broke me to know the brokenness that
is within me because of my family. I know that God is going to be restoring
these relationships while I am on The World Race.
My friend Ben’s mom walked up
to me last Sunday in church and asked me a very deep question, “What would it take for your relationship
with your father to be restored?” Let me just tell you that I had tears
instantly. I went on to describe the non-existent relationship that I have with
my father and that I do not know how it would be restored. My father is very
verbally abusive and I do not know if I could even have that in my life. She
told me, “So, essentially, it would take your father coming to know Jesus?”
Yes, that is the answer I needed. My father would need to come to know Jesus
for me to have a relationship with him. She is now praying for my father to
come to know Jesus and now it has become my prayer as well.
Would you too, pray for my father, William (Bill) Wilcox, to come to
know Jesus? I
think it is very important to call him by name because it will make the prayer
so much more powerful. If we are all lifting him up in prayer, I know that God
will restore this broken relationship. I know that God will restore his heart
back to his creator. Please pray for my dad. Pray for my heart to accept this
relationship once it is mended.
Sorry this blog is super long,
but God just really did a work in my heart tonight.
Stay tuned because I can
guarantee you there is more to come.
I’ll be launching to Bulgaria
on Friday!!!
