Not seeming to get enough sleep, certainly needing to nap everyday, constantly hungry and feeling compelled to eat when not, cravings for any and everything UNhealthy, no desire for health foods whatsoever, no energy or even a desire to exercise, and what concerned me the most, cravings for nicotine for the first time in two years since the Lord instantaneously took all cravings away.
For the first time, and for AT LEAST a week, I have experienced a PHYSICAL, DEMONIC attack and though it isn’t my first encounter with a demon, it is a first to being physically AWARE of “my” battle with them. Thankfully, today is better.
The characteristics I first listed are NOT at all like me so after several days of suffering such and realizing it was much more serious than “that time of the month” I said, “LORD?? WHAT is going on?” And please trust, working nightshift at a hospital has not helped matters, only worsened them. So I did all I knew to do and I continued seeking the Lord… Later, not knowing how I felt about prayer (from others and/or myself that may be carnal and fleshly)… I sought the Lord some more.
Within several days of that I came in contact with a woman who has often been like a mentor. During our conversation I decided to ask her to pray. She prayed, and afterwards, in similar words to these, said… “they can only attack you when God has allowed them.” Hmm. That was a thought. So I guess we’re all familiar with the book of Job and how “He who lives in me is greater than…”
So after following the Lord’s lead, I was convinced it to be true, for at least this particular occurence…
Later into that night the Spirit of the Lord said…
“For My thoughts are not your thoughts nor are your ways My ways.
For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways
Higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts.”
So I SAY, please have Your way and do Your will O Lord, and teach me.
“but we REJOICE in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out His love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom He has given us.”
Where I think many might have said “Why me? And please take this. Or let us start a chain of prayer…” the Lord allows me to see, to REJOICE and to say, I NEEDED THIS. Though I’ve been in distress, sad, miserably FAT feeling and in all ways, weighed down while often short of tears… I get to say, I NEEDED THIS. And for this season, it is critical.
This week was my week to pick a scripture for team Kiatera to seek the Lord and meditate on… here’s part of an email I was able to them…
“Romans 5:3~ PERSEVERANCE
MANY times over this year we will be demonically ATTACKED and IT WILL BE BRUTAL. But in Him we are a STRONG team and WE WILL PERSEVERE.”
And to us all…
“…suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. AND HOPE DOES NOT DISSAPOINT us…”
“BELOVED, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing has happened unto you; But REJOICE… inasmuch ye are PARTAKERS of Christ’s sufferings…”
A demonic attack… preparing and equipping? to run the race??… who would have thought? 🙂
“And we know that ALL things work together FOR GOOD to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.”
THANK YOU, JESUS! WE LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
