Month 8.
What?!…
I remember being at home stalking the WR blogsite for hours, reading the blogs of Racers entering or living in Month 8. And I would think to myself, “man, they’ve got their act together now! They know what’s going on, know when & how to communicate effectively, love every aspect of the Race and enjoy all of the ministry they’re doing and have seen so many awesome signs & wonders from the Lord that their prayer life and spiritual eyes and ears are bold and sharp. …these people are really something!”
*insert light chuckle here*
Now, seven months in to my own Race experience, I have a slightly different perspective. While I believe that all of these things are entirely possible and certainly true to some extent, I find myself thinking, “I really hope there’s no one lurking on the WR site, stumbling across my blog, reading entries I post this month and thinking anything close to the same things.” I’d put these people up on a sort of pedestal based on assumptions I’d made about their journey. Some assumptions were safe enough to make, but I daresay not all. And I would bet a Dr. Pepper (vanilla, from Sonic!!) that, had these people known I was raising them up in my mind to some unknown standard, their reaction would be exactly what mine is……
“…please don’t.”
Because they knew, what I know: that I don’t know anything. And I certainly still have a lot of growing to do.
Sure, I know more about what to (not) expect on the Race than I did Day 1 of Month 1. I know more about myself & the others around me than I did seven months ago. I even know a few more words in other languages than I did last fall. But, I really don’t have any idea what I am doing here. I know that day in & day out; the hope & prayer of loving God & people throughout the world, but beyond that…I got nothin’. Only my Father knows the point of all of this. And I can almost guarantee it’s not what I or you, for that matter, think it is. He knows so much more than I could ever want to know and I find myself yearning to fall under the protection of His knowledge – not my own – as the months pass by.
I’ll post a blog about Cambodia and the team changes that occurred right before coming to Africa at some point. But, I don’t think there’s internet access in the place I’m staying at this month (potentially an hour away to the nearest internet cafe), so it might be a while.
Love & Hugs to all of you!!! Let’s see what Africa holds!!
