Faith in something.

 

From the beginning of The Race (and maybe from the beginning of time…) I have been asking The Lord for MORE POWER and MORE AUTHORITY. I want the power to speak life into people, health into the sick, and truth into the weary. I want the authority to speak against sickness, against poverty, and against the spirits sent by the enemy. So I have learned to take seriously the Words God speaks into me about His Power and Authority being in me through The Holy Spirit. I pray knowing that I have authority over demons, sickness, and all that jazz. I know I have power through the Holy Spirit.

 

So I have faith in God as the Creator of the Heavens and the Earth. I have faith in God as the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords. But I have found that I lack faith in God as my Father. I understand He gives me His power over His creation, and that I have His authority over the spirits of this world, but I don´t think I fully grasp that He loves me. He sees me just the way I am and He loves me because He created me this way from the beginning. He sees great things in me. He has put the gifts, quirks, and personality into me to work the way I do today. I can try to earn that love as much as I want. But until I start to walk in the belief that He DOES love me, and that He already loves me whether I do somethign or not, I am never going to walk in the full power and authority He gives me. As RX Bandits singer, Matt Embree, says it, “until the power of love can exceed the love of power, you know it will never, ever be,” I cannot desire Power and receive Love. I must desire more and more Love, and through that Love God´s power will work.

 

1 Corinthians 13 starts with a bunch of things that we see every day on The World Race- healing, prophecy, speaking, etc.- and it says that if we do these things without having love in our hearts in the first place, these things simply fill up our time and energy. No fruit will come of them. The Power that God has over us is not an entity in and of itself. The Power is simply a characteristic, or an effect, of The Love He has for us. Without His Love, Power doesn´t exist. With Love, you don´t need to ask for Power, because The Love already has it.

 

So even though I don´t necessarily grasp the concept or feeling of God´s Love, this is a new point where I have to walk in faith that God Loves me, even if I don´t understand it very much.

 

 

Quick update for all you supporters:

I will be back in Pennsylvania as of September 10th at my parents place in Denver, for a week or two, running around and visiting friends and family, then I plan on heading up to Lewisburg for two or three weeks visiting friends, families, churches, wherever. So if you would like to get together, I´m sure I will be running around meeting people, or just sitting somewhere by a pool relaxing, but please shoot me an e-mail or a message on here and let me know. I would love to meet up with anyone and everyone to chat about the past year for you and me, but I may or may not have a phone handy, and I definitely want to make sure I make time for everyone. Get those questions written down and ready for me. See you all soon.

 

Thanks for reading.