It shouldn’t surprise me at all how big and fast God can move in my life, but it still does. I’m shocked to look back simply 2 weeks ago and see who I was then and who I am now. Pure transformation. But how?
Most of my life I have been haunted by my rough past, rebellion, and how I was made up, to the point that I never thought I had anything to offer God or His ministry. I was stuck comparing myself to everyone else and wishing I had what he or she had or was more like him or her. Then I would be complete and able to serve God in a powerful way. Satan had me under this lie for many many years. NO LONGER!
It all started with an email conversation with my mom (usually how it always begins) and I asked her why the heck I am the way I am and why I don’t have certain qualities of others. As always, she knows how to communicate to me in a gentle way but effective. She simply stated “this year is the year that God is going to show me why I am designed this way and how He is going to use it.”
So I began to pray that God would give me answers and begin to show me why the heck He designed me this way. From that day, I was saturated with sermons, books and podcasts on my computer that hit me right in the face with the truth. I am sufficient. I am enough. I already have everything I need. I was designed exactly how God wanted me to be designed. That’s why He did it. He has a place for me and my gifts and talents. Even though I have used them for negative in the past, it now is used for His kingdom, just as He designed it to be.
IT’S NOT ABOUT ME! It’s not about you. It’s not about us. It’s about His kingdom and saying YES to using the gifts and talents he gave me. I walk in love. It’s all about love. LOVE NEVER FAILS. That’s the freedom I have been searching for! No more comparing, no more wishing and wandering what I would be like if I was made up like someone else. If I keep spending my time trying to be someone else, then who is going to fill my spot that God designed me to serve in?
I now walk in the freedom of loving who God designed me to be. I am saying YES to when He calls me to use my gifts and talents then I move on to the next. It’s no longer about performance because it’s not for me. It’s for HIM. He has the big picture for the kingdom and we were never meant to have that picture. Just be there and be ready to say YES when He calls.
I do apologize but internet is not good enough to upload any photos right now…
