This question is always so hard for me to answer…….. But
here is my best attempt!
I am twenty six years
old and lived my whole life in Georgia. By
the grace of God I am still alive! In
some respects my childhood presented a fair amount of challenges. Yet in comparison to millions I am so
fortunate. Throughout my childhood my
parents slept in different bed rooms.
Honestly, I can’t recall a time when they were affectionate toward one
another. When I was seven my parents were divorced and
in some ways it was the best thing that could happen and at the same time it
affected me very adversely.
I say all of that to let you know where I came from. Growing up I became jaded, I felt like the
world owed me something, that I deserved better. I honestly believe that I developed several
mental and emotional issues that affected me very adversely. I
think that in some ways I was dead inside.
I felt like I was missing something and spent most of my time searching
for that “something”. To be honest, I searched
high and low. I looked everywhere I could
think to look; cigarettes, beer, liquor, weed, girls, and busyness. As you can imagine none of these things were
the solution I was looking for.
In God’s providence and omniscience He met me where I was. I was dating this girl…. My buddy warned me
she was too religious for me, but I insisted.
Under very odd circumstances God reached me. I always kid with people that one day God
tackled me, and laughing said, “why do you run so much, you’re not very fast”. That season of my life altered my perception indefinitely. Since then I have had intense seasons of
fellowship with God and seasons that were not so spectacular. Fortunately, not one second, day, success or
failure has been a waste. I have learned
invaluable lessons from these experiences. I was not raised a Christian so everything I know
of God is tangible and cannot be robbed from me. I don’t have Sunday school answers. I have
life experiences that cannot be taken away from me.
Today, I am a college graduate seeking earnestly to understand
my place in the world. I guess it is the
classic search for understanding, knowledge, and purpose. I am an analytical person, and spend much of
my time fathoming the great mysteries. I
love knowledge, learning and understanding the WHY of life. My wife laughs at me a lot because I interject
my thoughts on everything.
with the belief that living in God’s creation should be a blast! If His desire is to give us abundantly
exceedingly more than we can ask or think, why are we not seeing that? I have an inner longing to have irrepressible
joy. The word says that in His presence
is the fullness of Joy and pleasures forevermore! So it is my life’s mission to learn to live
in the father’s presence. To walk in the
knowledge that GOD LOVES ME! This
revelation is always fresh and changes me.
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