The past few months I have struggled greatly. I have felt as though I was going a million miles an hour in a million different directions. School became exceedingly stressful and my student teaching experience had me questioning my whole life plan that I had etched in stone years before. On top of it all, I had to fund raise for the Race. Fundraising is one of the most stressful things that I have ever done. For a long time I was hopeful about it but as time went on to no avail, I became doubtful. I began to question whether or not I should even do the race because fundraising was going so poorly. I was a mess. However, one day, possibly on the worst day that I have had in a while, God reassured me. I was driving back to my dorm and suddenly felt the desperate need to go to a spot on campus that I frequent to pray and take a step back. As I pulled up to the edge of the parking lot by my thinking spot, I saw my friend Daniel. I rarely saw Daniel on campus because our schedules were polar opposite and I had not spent time with him in months. He walked over to where I was sitting and we began to talk. He told me that he too had been having a rough time and struggling. We talked for a long time and everything he said was as if He was saying it. It reassured me in the ways I needed to be as if he knew without me telling him. Daniel said that he hadn’t planned to come up to this spot, but he felt like he needed to. When Daniel left he said, “Oh by the way I have been meaning to give this to you” and gave me money for the Race. I began to cry when I sat in my car and was reminded of two verses. Psalm 18:18-19—They confronted me in the day of my disaster, but the Lord was my support.19 He brought me out into a spacious place; he rescued me because he delighted in me—because when I was in such inner tumult and distress, God sent me Daniel to remind me, unconsciously, of God’s love for me and his constant support. The second verse was Philippians 4:19—And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus. I realized in that moment that God provides and had a plan for me. About three weeks later, I had a bake sale to raise money. I was too broke to afford to make a lot of things and God sent me my dearest friends who volunteered their time, money, and granulated sugar and bake for me. I have a dozen people drop brownies, cookies, cakes, muffins, and breads off at my house. My friends asked only what could they give. Many of my bakers took it a step further and proceeded to buy things from me to support me. God has blessed me with so many amazing people in my time of doubt and strife. They help me come up with fundraising ideas and dollars here and there. Fundraising is still a large stress factor in my life and I pray about it often. I am starting to go around to local businesses and am perpetually brainstorming. I know that God will provide and make a way for me. ?
