Dear P Squad Fam,

I am writing this during our month 6 debrief as our theme was freedom, which is just so cool to have this as a theme since back in training camp the phase freedom fighter was declared over us by leadership.  I didn’t know what it was going to mean back then but over the course of this year the meaning behind our squad nickname as become very clear to me, as over the course of this season in our lives.

As our time together has come to a close I just want to write this letter to you all as it is easier for me to Express myself on writing rather then speaking

First I just want to say I’m sorry

For all the judgements I made about you before training camp

For wanting to run away from you all before I even met any of you

For not trusting you guys & being a bit of a lone wolf at training camp. 

As the truth was I was scared:

To introduce myself to you all

Because I was worried about what you all thought of me

If you all were going to even accept me

In turn I was also afraid if I could accept you guys as well.  I questioned myself if I had even made the right choice to go on the world race, if I could truly live is this community as I knew it would be vastly different to what I’m used to back home.  Add in the age factor and I must admit I really had my doubts

Simply put I am very thankful for you all

I wanted to quit before it all began but God is greater then all , and though my faith & trust in him I made it to the end with you all 

So I just want to say thank you P Squad as you have done more then you might think for me & not realized it.

Thank you

For helping me find my identity in Christ

For helping me grow to be more christ like and to overall be a better person through giving me feedback

For helping me find my voice

For accepting me 

For loving me

For treating me like a sister & for always be willing to go on adventures with me

For making me feel youthful agian & teaching this old dog some new tricks like venmo, new card games like taco salad & airdrop

For giving this only child a taste of what’s it’s like to be a sister as it is something that I’ll cherish forever

For being my family this year

I am so thankful for everyone of you guys and I’m so honored that I got to spend this year of my life with you all

Thank you for sharing your stories with me.  All of you have such powerful testimonies and I have learned something from each of them.  Never be afraid to share that story with someone because you never know the affect your story will have.

All of you truly are freedom fighters and to see that in all of you is such a joy.  Never lose that passion for christ and always be bold to share the gospel and your story.

I am so proud of each and everyone of you. 

I am so honored to know you all and to a part of your lives.  God has put all of you into my life for a reason and for those reasons I am very grateful.  I know my race wouldn’t be the same without anyone of you.

I feel like the Spirit has anointed us for we truly are a very special squad.  I know that it will be people from P squad that will lead the revival that is so very much needed back home.  This is what I want our legacy to be in that we not only changed people’s lives around the world, but we were the ones that started the fire back home in the states as well.  So much so that if there was a Christian Hall of Fame, we would be in it.  This is our time to leave our mark and be the voice of our generation, a generation of Christian change.  

As we go our separate ways wherever God may lead us, know that all of you will be in my heart & my prayers.  

God has great things planned for all of you and I cannot wait to see/hear where God takes you all in this crazy journey called life.

I want to say a special thank you to both Team Surrendered, Team SC & Team Titan as you gals (and guys) have had such an impact on me.

It’s pretty awesome to think that way before we all knew that we were going on the world race & become a squad that God already had planned this adventure all out and we didnt even know it until it was his timing.  For this I am forever grateful as you all have touched me and I’m honored to call you all friends.

We will always be the August 2018 training camp squad wars champions!

All of us trying to be strong 
I’ve got somewhere else to be 
Promises to keep 

I’ve made up my mind 
There is no turning back 

It’s the hardest thing 
I’ll ever have to lie 
To show no emotion 
When you start to cry 
I can’t let you see 
What you mean to me 
When my hands are tied 
And my hearts not free 
We’re not meant to be 
It’s the hardest thing 
I’ll ever had to do 
To turn around and walk away 
Pretending I don’t love you 

I know that we’ll meet again 
Fate has a place and time 
So you can get on with your life 
I’ve got to be cruel to be kind 

Maybe another time, another day 
As much as I want to, I can’t stay 
(Ooh) 

Saying goodbye & walking out those doors with tears in my eyes at the Boston airport is by far the hardest goodbye I have said on the race. 

Until the day our paths cross agian or when the day comes when we see each other in heaven, know that I will always be out there praying for you guys, and that you all will be in my heart (& maybe even in my sermons) from this day forward.

 

WE ARE FAMILY

WE ARE LOVE

WE ARE FREEDOM 

WE ARE FIGHTERS

WE ARE P SQUAD! 

Love your sister in Christ,

Bon Bon

Psalms 18:2