100 days til P squad launches for our 11 month mission adventure
5 weeks till training camp
I really don’t know which one is scarier?
Okay they both are to me but for totally different reasons.
First up training camp:
9 words: 2.2 mile hike with full gear in 38 minutes
First of all, I am in pretty decent shape so for me to hike with my backpack on is no prob for me, its the time limit that freaks me out for I am afraid that something like that I will fail at, and not be able to go on the world race. I have been praying about it for help to not stress about it as I have others things that I am stressing about at the moment, but no matter it is still something that is weighing heavily on me.
As far as the other aspects of training camp, I am actually looking forward to it all as for the most part training camp doesn’t sound too bad, and I can already tell that God is preparing my heart to get beaten and built up again if the indication of the fact that almost all of my Pastor’s sermons lately have hit me right in the heart.
Also let’s just hope my knee will survive training camp too (long story there)
Besides that I’m not that worried about training camp as a whole especially since I am looking forward to meeting the rest of P squad.
Second the actual launch date:
While I don’t know the exact date yet as all I know is that it is the weekend of October 5th-6th. That in itself is scary since it is unknown, and that is something that scares me.
The Unknown pretty much describes this whole mission trip for me, and part of my testimony for going on the World Race. while I do have some idea of what to expect, I know that this trip will be unique to me.
What I do know: Where I am going and who I am going with, and what I am leaving behind. What I don’t know is everything else that is about to happen to me on this journey.
Back when I started at Target, I knew that I wasn’t going to be in retail forever since I did know that God had a plan for me, but it was pretty much up until that point that I really didn’t put my full trust in God and his plan for me, so I tried to manipulate it in ways so that I could control my own destiny, and live my life the way I wanted too.
Yeah let’s just say that God kicked my butt.
As it has been through my time in the retail business that I have learned to submit to better authority & their plans for me that day even if I hate to do that, and knowing that I have certain tasks that I must get done, but knowing that I prob won’t get them all done.
The same thing with God as we must submit to him and his plan for us, not our own plan. I remember during my quiet time as I was walking Chase one evening as we were stopped since Chase wanted to sniff something like all dogs do, so I stood there while he sniffed around. I remember talking to God about the situation that I was in as I hadn’t even been at Target a year yet, and I wanted to know if I was destined to work retail for the rest of my life. some time goes by, and I felt a sense that God was speaking to me, and he told me to give my present situation 5 years, and then he will revel his next step for me in his plan, but in order to do this I had to give up all of my control over what I thought my life plan was, and just let God work in his own way and time.
Well 5 and half years later, he did revel what he meant by that which was the next part of his plan for me: The World Race
I accepted the unknown, and fully put my trust and my faith in him to leave everything and everyone I love for a year, and serve his people, which 5 years ago that won’t not have been the case.
I still don’t know what lies beyond for me after the coming year, but for now I wanna live in the present, and continue to prepare for the World Race.
WOW……. I leave in 100 days (that’s so weird to say), but maybe not that scary after all.
YOLO
Til next time your fellow sister in Christ,
Bonnie
Psalms 18:2
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