WAR.
A spiritual war that is…SPIRITUAL WARFARE. It feels like I’m loosing, but I know that’s just a lie. I didn’t describe training camp as much in my last blog, I was just excited to tell you that I decided to go in the first place! 14 days till launch!?!? 2 weeks!?!? All types of emotions are floating around my head, I’m sure the rest of my team can attest to that.
So I wanted to take a few minutes of your time to describe in more detail what exactly went down at training camp, to what has been happening, and what I am expecting as October 1 quickly approaches. M Squad, let me know if you can relate
TRAINING CAMP
It was www.bomb.com!! Very challenging, confrontational, uplifting, realistic, unrealistic, emotional, fun, difficult, powerful. In addition to all of the practical skills we learned, such as different living and community scenarios ( i.e. loosing ALL YOUR LUGGAGE, sharing, sleeping in an airport, buying food for your whole team in a busy market, making a tent out of tarp and string only, port-a-potties? I can go on and on) we also learned a lot about ourselves! How much can you find out about yourself in 10 days that could possibly make an impact on the 20 plus years that you’ve already been getting to know yourself? A LOT! We learned/were reminded about abandonment, grace, forgiveness, soul-ties, REAL community, the Holy Spirit, the Father’s love for us…and again I could go on and on. As a team we LITERALLY experienced a lot miracles, brokenness, hope, and redemption in being part of this receiving process during camp. Reading a few of my squad/teammates blogs, one common theme I can see is that God is Real and He loves me. Fellow human beings, this is such a simple yet profound statement that I can only pray and trust that our creator can reveal to you! Training camp was a charge for racers to grasp and go forth to boldly live out the gospel of Jesus Christ. This is an amazing REAL story that every Christian should feel unworthy yet honored and uplifted to be part of!
CURRENTLY
I am a wreck, a hot mess. I have a few things in my life that are confusing and draining. I am fighting back tears as I type this because I am afraid of what I may be choosing to leave behind. Honestly I am fighting once again whether or not I should go. WAR I tell you. The devil and MYSELF are making it hard for me to stand firm in my decision. Ahhh freewill, feels like a gift and a curse. I do not have my loved ones’ blessings to go. My family is currently going through a lot of pain and hardship. We do not agree on some things and it hurts me to see them hurt because of that.
Meanwhile, I’ve been struggling with some sin issues. I had a profound conversation with a friend last night, where God allowed me to understand deeper issues behind my faults. Thank you friend, you know who you are. As a result, myself and everyone surrounding my choice is also suffering the consequences. I’m struggling to see myself how God sees me through the lens of his Son. On the flip side I have been touched by His mercy and grace as truth is being whispered or even shouted in my ear through my church, team, friends, worship and His word. However, I am still hurt to know and even see that they are hurt. Lord have mercy!! Be glorified in this…and we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose (Romans 8:28)…WAR.
WHAT I’M EXPECTING
I am expecting God to do whatever it takes for my team to be obedient to His calling. That is my prayer for us M Squad. This battle has already been won. I am blessed to be apart of this generation of World Racers. Please continue to pray for us.
My team and I will be serving in the slums of Cambodia next month teaching 2-4 yr olds, M-Th and then 2 English/Computer classes in the evening (varying ages). Sunday afternoon is children’s club and from 3-5pm we will have guitar classes for the youth.
Meet my family for the next 11 months, the 7 Watchers (Luke 12: 35-48) left to right:
johnsapp.theworldrace.org
nathangage.theworldrace.org
joshuaowen.theworldrace.org
joshuagarcia.theworldrace.org
hannaherickson.theworldrace.org
michaelahennagir.theworldrace.org
Meet my (M) Squad
Love you all, praying for your continued support through prayers and finances as this 11 month journey is just about to begin!
