I have been with my whole M-squad this month in Nicaragua. I was thinking this month is going to be so great being around my whole squad, my good friends, and amazing ministry!!
The truth is this month has been great in amazing ways but there has been times where God told me Blake enough is enough running away from problems! Deal with your problems and insecurities!
Uprooting Sucks but is Needed for Spiritual Growth.
In Costa Rica God had me uproot the feeling of me not being worthy and loved. I was in a funk for two days and felt like the black sheep of my team. My team decided to pray through my struggles and keep me accountable for saying I am loved and I am worthy by God. I been doing really great with declaring this over me everyday and thought this was a done issue.
Well this was only one root of the problem. God loves to do crazy things while your on the race to promote spiritual growth. On a Sunday night I was hanging out outside the church with Kara Yohan while she was practicing the mandalin. At first, I was out there just making up a song for Kara then God had a divine appointment for me. I started to bring up how I was comparing people to my skills and abilities. I said some things and Kara was kind in listening to me but also gave me some tough love. She told me to go tell my teammates on BTX and a squad leader about comparing other people. Of course at first I was like really God this isn't a big deal! Then he said to me you can't run anymore from your problems! Deal with them I want you to be the best man for Christ you can be for Him!
So I did tell my BTX teammates and my squad leader about this issue of comparing others to myself. They prayed for me and I asked them for accountability.
So uprooting sucks but needed for spiritual growth. I will not come home from the race the same man I was before the race and I'm determined and willing to change for life changing growth in Christ!
