I finished out of Thailand on an upswing! Thank you Lord!
The first four months I had some lessons to learn about letting go of my past, not comparing myself to others, and being myself in Christ. Some parts of the uprooting sucked to be honest with y'all. When things are uprooted by God for you to grow in Christ it's not fun but in the end Christ is making the best version of the person He intended for you to be in His image.
So at the end of Thailand I was like now I'm going to walk away from the past which was holding me back as a person before and now I'm going to use the leadership gifts He is giving to me for His glory! Whoohoo!!
God said Boy, You have A Lot to Learn.
First thing team switch.
God why am I on a team now with 4 women and a married couple and I'm the only single guy on my new team?
Maybe God wants me to see a Godly marriage right in front of me day in and day out so I can be the best man He intends me of being in my relationship with my future wife and family someday. Maybe get some tips from the married man in my group!
Boy, you have a Lot to Learn.
Second thing I am in Malaysia where you have freedom of religion but its more like a don't ask don't tell policy. Why am I in Malaysia Lord? At least in Thailand they don't care about how many times your bold with the gospel there so laid back, I get to Malaysia and I feel like my gifts are pressed down somewhat. Ugh!
Maybe The Lord wants me to learn new and improved ways about being bold in Christ without always preaching the gospel.
In Malaysia there's all these culture sensitivities about touching people and all! Men can only hug men, women can only hug women and so on! In the 4 previous countries I have been to about physical touch they are more like America where it's okay for men to hug women! Now Lord, why can't I do this now?
Boy it's not about you! It's about being honoring in the place your in now so you can be a testimony for Christ!
Lord the bolder I am for you sometimes I fail. The other day I shared with some Indian people and I shared a testimony instead of the gospel. I shared about your name just not the Gospel. Ugh!
The Lord says to me, I still used the testimony you shared with the Indian family it's okay Blake. Just use this as a learning opportunity for next time.
I am teaching you things everyday so you can be more like Christ! This may not feel like a great place to be at all times but in reality this is a great place to be in your walk with with Christ.
Boy, You Have A Lot to Learn.
