Sometimes it hurts a lot to let someone in and see your past, shame, sins and all around ugly. But there’s something so powerful and freeing when you are vulnerable. I had to stay back from ministry for two and a half days now because this sickness knocked me on my butt. I figured I had enough down time that I should go through some inner healing questions and do some evaluating of my life.
Life. Is. Hard. Plain and simple. But God finds joy in the small steps that we take. I’ve taken a lot of small steps over the past week and even the smallest of steps are hard. And continually God is showing me and telling me to be vulnerable and how amazing that is. It’s in the children’s smiles and hugs as they are vulnerable with me, who is still a stranger at this point. It’s sharing small but very impactful life moments with my leaders and teammates. It’s building trust that I didn’t think I’d ever feel. It’s scary but it’s amazing and so freeing.
I’m praying for God to continue to break down walls and for me to want to share my testimony with strength. That He would use me in new ways and that I’d trust Him fully. God wants me to come before Him and show Him all the places I need His grace and that is hard, but also so, so good!
I AM LOVED, CHOSEN, BEAUTIFUL, &FORGIVEN
