And You Love Yourself

 

Plastic princess shoes clank as you run down the hall

The world is magic and pink is the only color in your rainbow

Lipstick smears from cheek to cheek

Your little hands try their best to copy your older sisters

You shine when you catch a glimpse of yourself in the mirror

 

At 3 you love yourself

 

You start school and your world gets bigger

You listen when the older girls talk about what’s wrong with their bodies

One day a boy pushes you on the playground because he doesn’t like your hair

Your mom gets ready and although she’s the most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen

You catch the disappointment in her eyes when she looks in the mirror

 

At 11 you question yourself

 

The world keeps growing and hate gets louder

You have to be skinny but also curvy

Smart but not intimidating

Cute and silly but also sexy and mysterious

Your boyfriend loves you but he tells you you’ll never be enough

So you try a new guy and another but its all the same

One thinks you’re fat anther thinks you’re boring another that your personality is too big

Too much or not enough

 

At 16 you want to change yourself

 

You’re constantly flooded with the latest fads

About how to have the best beach body

Or how to make yourself more desirable in five easy steps

Or how to perfectly contour your face

The radio plays songs about butts

And no one cares how your eyes twinkle when you step into the sun

The size of your jeans is all wrong

And voices of the world are screaming inside your head making you sick

 

You finally meet a boy who you lose yourself in

You become everything he ever wanted

He picks out your clothes and the way you do your hair

He tells you that you’re beautiful

But he doesn’t even see you he only sees the you he created

 

After a while he’s bored with his creation and he asks you to be original

You stare back at him blankly

The world erased your original

At 19 you want to give up on yourself

 

But you don’t

 

You ditch the boy and the magazines

And give your middle finger to the world because you’re over it

You’re done with the hate

You decide to stare in the mirror and damn the lies to hell

You’re beautiful and you’re angry

You see hate ruining the lives of girls all around

You watch the world erase originality

 

NO MORE

 

At 21 you remember the little girl with lipstick smears and plastic shoes

You remember her, and you love her

Your eyes still twinkle when you step into the sun

You are unapologetically original

 

And you love yourself