“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you.” Matthew 6:33
During my first two weeks in Uganda, I asked God what do you want to teach me in this season?
He answered, I want to begin to teach you what seeking my kingdom really is. I felt him really impressing on my heart that my aim, my goal and my attention needs to be just chasing after Him, running into his arms no matter how far away I may feel, and not going to anything else to satisfy.
We’re half way through our trip and thoughts about after the race are hitting me more than ever. I have definitely been distracted by thoughts about my future. What does it look like? Where will I be? Where will I work and what is God’s ultimate plan for me. I’ve been thinking more about being in a relationship even though it’s not the season for it, and I just want to embrace my singleness. I miss my family and friends back home as well as the comforts of the U.S. I want to make an agenda for my post race life and I find momentary peace about having it all figured out. These thoughts get me focused on everything else but being fully here, so daily I have to lay down my expectations, concerns, thoughts and dreams so I can seek His kingdom here and now. It’s been difficult, because I’m experiencing the culture shock and just wanting to cling to familiarity.
The kingdom of God is seeking purity, righteousness, holiness, and wanting Jesus more than anything. Its not just doing all these things to show God you love Him, its resting in His truth. When I just choose to be like Him, the deeds follow. There is so much peace and simplicity in just seeking after Him, and letting go of my life. I love how God gently reminds me of grace. That grace has really been awesome to hold onto here in Uganda, because being here isn’t easy.
When it’s so challenging to press in and stay committed, I remember that He’s the only one that knows me, and I can always come to Him. I want Him, I want to seek after him, be like him and leave all of my cares, plans and future in his hands. He’s my Heavenly Father and he’s taking care of all of it, and wants to give me the desires of my heart!
