This past month God has done so much in my life and I have been reluctant to write this post because I'm afraid that I wont be able to put my experience into words. I will be the first to admit that I am not always the most positive person. I have a tendency to complain and am pretty stubborn at times (which don't seem to be ideal qualities when you are living with 40 other people). However, throughout this month God has instilled in me a peace and tranquility unlike anything that i have ever experienced. It is as though I am living in an almost dreamlike state where I am constantly in the flow. Ideas are flowing and I am filling page after page with words, visions, and creative ideas for the future. I have been spending bus rides in an almost meditative world where I am completely separate from everything going on around me. I have also found such joy in storytelling. We were at a ministry site one day and for some reason I felt the need to tell a story….not knowing that God would use this as a creative way to share love and joy with everyone around me. I don't really know how it happened, when it happened, or why it happened now but I am just trying to press into it as much as I can.
Coming into the race I was an avid consumer…books, blogs, articles, twitter. I was constantly searching for happiness, peace, direction, and fulfillment. Interestingly enough, I found this almost immediately once I was on the race and it hasn't stopped yet.
I know that God is using this season of my life to prepare me and to open my eyes and my heart to the future that he has planned for me and I just want to dig as deep as I can. In a way I think that I am still trying to process all that is happening in me and hopefully over the next few weeks I will be able to more coherently explain it all. For now, I just want you all to know I am learning so much about myself and I am going to ride out this creative adventure of mine as long as I can! Each day is part of the journey and I am just trying to take it all one day at a time!
