Anyone who knows me knows that I’m a little busy bee. Being on my feet is a necessity for me. I mean, of course I need my “bum it at home” days, but I really love being outside and exploring and being on the go go go…
I often feel like the little white rabbit from Alice in Wonderland who scurries along singing “I’m late, I’m late, I’m really really really late…no time to say hello.. goodbye! I’m late, I’m late, I’m late!”.
I was especially excited for my team’s ministry here in Malaysia. There is SO much to do here, and the culture in Malaysia is so diverse and interesting. There is a large Indian and Chinese influence here. When you walk down the streets here you hear Indian music blasting from the speakers, it makes you feel like you are in a Bollywood movie. And I LOVE it. I’m just waiting for everyone in the streets to break out into synchronized belly dancing… that would be a dream come true..
But if it has happened out on the streets of Penang, Malaysia, I wouldn’t know… because I haven’t been out there for a couple of days.
I sprained/strained a muscle/ligament in my right foot ( I think it was a combination of cheap no support flip flops, walking and “of course”). Honestly, I forgot what the doctor said because all that consumed my thoughts was “I recommend you stay off of it for a while.” Pow! Blow to the wild child, busy bee inside of me…
So, though I was planning on finishing the last three weeks of the race working as hard as possible, and not being consumed with any thoughts, or much rest… God has chosen otherwise.
At first it was a bit frustrating. You know… the usual questions come in like ” Why?!.. I’m so close to the end.. I wanted to finish strong..”
God has put me in this situation before with a sprained knee ligament three years ago.. It was a hard time for me to literally “be still” then, and when I heard the news again..the all too familiar sinking feeling came back.
“Oh no.. here come the barrage of thoughts, wonderings, “what if’s”, and “hows?”.. Lord I didn’t want to think!!!!!”
But I have to say.. this time has been extremely different. I have a peace in my mind and heart that I can’t explain, and I have a joy that is coming from me seeking Him with all my heart every day for hours upon hours. It has been the greatest blessing for me.
I have been able to start processing the past 11 months, preparing for the future, and learning more about God in the present.
I’ve been able to serve my fellow lady squadmates who have been on the go non-stop, I have been reading books that are continuing to challenge me in areas, and spark new ideas in my thinking, and I have been able to sit and play guitar to my King.
I guess God had a different idea of me finishing strong…
I’m once again humbled by His ideas being so much better than mine.
He’s such a wonderful Dad.
I still have two weeks left, and I’m still hoping to be a part of the Kawaan ministry here, but if not, I know I’m exactly where I need to be right now..
Off my feet…sitting at His.
Agenda: Love,
Bethsaida
