I’m sitting in my room right now (3:30a.m.), and I’m realizing that this is the eve of the last night I will sleep at my own leisure and comfort for the next 11 months. The thought is very sobering… and at the same time stimulating!
This entire process of leaving for the world race has been quite bittersweet. It was extremely bitter the week after I came back from training camp, because I didn’t want to leave my amazing family and friends to live with strangers. I wanted to go run and hide in some dark alley until our launch date passed!
But God has brought me from extremely bitter to oh so sweet in these 5 weeks since training camp. This process has taught me so much…especially how to realize that most things in life are a PROCESS, they take time. I always want to jump from point A to point B. I always want to be a part of whatever is going on, and have difficulty realizing that certain things have certain seasons.
God has walked alongside me in this process like a father teaching a child how to ride a bike. Training wheels on, Him walking alongside holding me, while I’m riding..Him letting go and catching me when I wobble in doubt or fear…and now He’s taken the training wheels off, and letting me ride..still walking alongside ready to catch me. He’s so patient. And I’m so thankful for His patience and love.
I leave NYC July 4th, and America July 5th.
I’m excited more than I think I have been since I first signed up. I’m so excited about how the people I meet, will change me, how I will bring change, how God will continue to start me off on training wheels in other areas of my life..and how much growth there will be.
I have learned that many times growth comes from death. I like how The New Living Translation version of the Bible says this
“I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of
wheat is planted in the soil and dies, it remains alone. But its death
will produce many new kernels”a plentiful harvest of new lives. Those
who love their life in this world will lose it. Those who care nothing
for their life in this world will keep it for eternity.” John 12:24-45
There are many things in my life that have to “die” in order for life, abundant life, to come. I know God is going to show me a couple of those on this trip.
My prayer is, as you journey along with me, that you would let your heart be open to the things God is gently tugging at your heart to let “die”, so that life can be brought in. May you be challenged, encouraged, broken, and blessed along with me on this venture.
May this journey bring life in our lives…may it bring adventure and perspective in our lives, may this journey bring tears and laughs in our lives…May we allow the process that needs to be done, to commence…May we allow the process that needs to be completed, to be completed..May this journey draw us closer to Truth and to the One who knows us inside and out…
May we all grow, and let die what need be.. Time is of the essence. It is no respecter of persons..but it does give leeway to process, and process promotes change..
Agenda:Love,
Bethsaida
P.S. I’m almost done with a packing video, that I am hoping to post up before I take flight on July 4th… Stay tuned =)
