Man oh man, this statement is strongly true–now more than ever as launch is quickly approaching (only 11 days aways). I seem to just start crying out of nowhere–usually I can stop if before anyone notices, but on occasion I don’t… and then I just blame it on being tired (although I am truly tired as well). So, for everyone asking me if I am nervous about going on the trip and what I will be doing, and my answer is always, “no, not at all.” I am not at all nervous about where I will be going.
However, despite not being nervous about where I will be going; I am absolutely terrified of leaving.
I am terrified to leave everyone. My life is built upon relationships–which I deeply value. Over the course of these up coming 11 months I will be leaving all of these relationships which I have built here at home. Now, don’t get me wrong, I firmly understand that everyone will be here when I get back; however, that does not mean that when I even think about leaving these people I don’t break down into tears.
I firmly believe that God will “step into” these relationship and hold both ends of them wrapped tightly in His arms so that we will not feel the pain of the separation, but rather His love will be a calming presence constantly reassuring us both that everything is going alright on both sides of the world. I declare this in faith because that is all that I have left. I am sick and tired of crying about this–I want my last few days to be ones of happiness and joy rather than ones of sadness. And I believe that God can let that happen.
If everyone who is reading this would be willing to partner with me in prayer for my next week and a half I would greatly appreciate it–prayers for comfort and peace and joy. Saying goodbye to my family will be the toughest and I have already shed many tears over just the thoughts of them. So, prayers for my family as well as they are preparing themselves for what I have thrown them into without their permission.
Lastly, if you are in the Toledo area and want to say goodbye to me, just let me know, I will be having a going away party next weekend, that I will be finalizing details about tomorrow. If you would can’t go/would like more time to say bye, just let me know either through text or facebook messenger. Thanks! And thanks for taking the time to read this and pray for me!
