Before reading this blog, I ask that you go listen to the song “Anchor of Peace” by North Point InsideOut. I will attach the youtube video link above.
This blog is going to take a look inside what I have been going through emotionally and spiritually. Honestly, I don’t know where to start so I think I will just start typing and see what I get. Haha
The Lord has been walking me through so many things but the biggest thing we have been walking through is my identity in Him. One of my coaches asked me at our last debrief if I was secure in my identity in Christ. Without question I responded no. Before coming on the Race, I had no idea who I was in Christ. I am still currently walking through this but I have come a long way since day one of the Race. I know in my head the things the Lord says about me but I don’t know them in my heart. We are getting there, day by day.
Something else the Lord has been walking me through, is leaning on Him when things get hard. It can be easy to lean on other people especially when they are going through similar things. The race is hard. Being away from home for 6 months now, away from almost all normalcy and comfort has been hitting me hard lately. It helps to know this won’t last forever and it will eventually come to an end but while I am in it, it can be hard to see past it. On the other hand, sometimes I focus so much on what’s next or counting down the days until home, that I let time pass me by while in countries I may never be in again. I have formed a habit(I am aware of it now and working on it) of watching Netflix instead of being present with my team or the country we are in. This habit developed in Panama. I would spend my free time watching shows or movies instead of hanging out with my team or doing things in the city I was in. Right now, I just want the time to go by so I can get home. But I still have five months left after Cambodia and the Lord has so many things for me and for the people I will encounter in the next five months. The time will come when I am preparing to head home, but I am not there yet. I try not to think of things that I miss from back home but sometimes it can be hard! Being away from home has made me appreciate the Coast so much!
Today I am 158 days in to the Race and approximately 161 days away from being done with the Race. One week in Cambodia, one month is Thailand and 4 months in Africa. i just can’t believe this is my life sometimes. The Lord has brought me to some freaking cool places and to meet some fabulous people. I have been able to walk along side churches and ministries that are doing life changing things around the world. Even though this is hard, I am overwhelmingly grateful that the Lord chose me to spread His name and partner with His people all over the world for this year.
Today, I am learning how the Lord is truly my anchor of peace. He is the one that comforts me when I am uncomfortable. He is the one that brings peace and joy. He has called me to this really hard thing but has not forgotten me out here. He has been with me through this entire thing, right by side, walking me through this. I have heard His voice like never before. He has given me purpose and direction. He has given me hope. My word for Cambodia is promise. I will keep you updated on what that means.
