I have never been very good at finishing things I start especially if I make a huge deal about doing them in the beginning. I have lots and I mean lots of amazing ideas. However, my completion is lacking….
I mean lets not even count the number of books I’m currently “reading.” I used to have this rule that I couldn’t start a new one without finishing the current one then I would just stop reading all together for months so that rule went out the window. I think if I tried to count I’d be in the ball park of at least 4. One that I might as well start over because let’s be honest I can’t remember how it started.
So if you’ve ever met me or spent a whole lot of time with me you know that I have great ideas. I’m not just patting myself on my back I do start out with the best of intentions. It’s not like I do it on purpose. I also have a tad bit of procrastination. Ok maybe a lot of procrastination if we’re going to be honest here. I guess I love the thrill of doing it all last minute. It’s a rush.
With these two factors I’m usually doomed before I start. The procrastination usually kicks in and then a few weeks down the road it doesn’t seem that important or something I want to do anymore.
So that leads me to the point…hahaha I know. I ramble. Hi, have we met? I like to talk, ramble, go down rabbit trails, get lost, and eventually wind up back on task at some point. Maybe.
But I’m also a bull in a China shop, when I have one of these ideas in my head. It’s pretty much all consuming. I over think, over analyze, and maybe it’s just the Lord shaking his head at me saying child this isn’t for you in the end.
Whatever it is, most of my friends and family will probably tell you that they thought this whole World Race thing would blow over like all the other storms of ideas that have passed over my life. Like finishing books, finishing scrapbooks from 2004 (I promise one day that will be finished.), going into the military, going back to school, joining a band. You name it whatever.
But I do intend on finishing this whole World Race thing. I intend on finally finishing something I started because there’s someone who never said no to finishing what he started. God, Father, Lord, Jesus or what ever you may call him promised he will finish what he started in me and in all of us. He’s never left, never forsaken us, and never moved from the very hour we first believed and before then. He has the master plan. He holds the keys. He’s the Alpha and Omega. The beginning and the end.
I’m sold. Signed, sealed and delivered. Pack me up. Ship me off. It maybe uncomfortable. Ok it’s going to be uncomfortable. But how can you say no to your creator. How can you not carry out his plan to use you for the greater good? How can you get half way and burn out like a candle?
I won’t lie and say that the road up until now hasn’t been easy since I’ve applied. I’ve had plenty of days of doubt. I’ve been kneaded like dough. It’s been a learning process. Days of in and out. But the commitment still remains. I still want to do this. With less than 2 weeks from training camp I’m still super nervous meeting all my squad mates but I know that there’s a plan. A plan bigger than myself and I have to take a step back. I have stop thinking about how I’m going to work this all out. I have to let him work it out. It’s his plan not mine.
I still have absolutely zero clue where the $11k or so left to raise is going to come from. None. Zilch. Nada. Nienta. Nichts. Niks. Niets. Rien. And if that’s not enough languages…..không. Which most of those translate roughly into the word nothing. I have nothing of a clue of where this money is coming from or when but that doesn’t stop me. Because He never stops. He has the plan. He’s the Alpha and Omega. He knows how this whole strange trip is going to end and that my friends is all I need to know.
He will finish what he started. Which means I will finish what I’ve started…
Philippians 1:6:
Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
