There was a time on my race when God taught me so much about there being no insignificant moment and the idea of sowing and reaping. There was a time on my race when I thought I actually understood that.
It’s funny how you don’t really understand something fully until you are tested in it. My friend Celeste always talked about how some truths actually became truths to her after she was tested in it. I never really understood that because I thought they were always truths, whether you believed them or not. But I am starting to realize what she meant.
God spoke to my team almost every month about sowing and reaping. And I was constantly seeking God for deeper understanding because I get the idea behind it, I do. You plant something, and that is what will grow. Simple. But I knew there was a deeper understanding that I couldn’t quite grasp. And it feels as though I am in the middle of that understanding, several months down the road in America.
I am recognizing that I am in the middle of a test, but I don’t even know where to go from here. And it is probably one of the hardest tests…the kind where you know what you need to do and how your time can best be spent, and yet nothing in you desires or motivates you to do it. The kind of test where you can see the purpose and even the value in persevering, but you’re dragging your feet every step of the way.
I am starting to see that my priorities and how I spend my time don’t really match up with the cost of what I have asked for from God.
For example:
I want to see miracles. I want God to use me to heal the sick, raise the dead and literally bring heaven to earth.
BUT, when I have a choice to spend real intimate time with Jesus and learn more and more what his voice sounds like OR sleep in, watch a T.V. show or movie, or do any other mindless tasks…
I seem to choose the second option.
I don’t know why it has been hard for me to choose the first option lately. I am having to remind myself constantly to view my priorities with eternity in sight and that even though I cannot see what I am preparing for, it is urgent and it is valuable. I don’t have time to waste and I am not promised tomorrow, so I can’t wait to go deeper in to Christ. I can’t put off learning to hear my Father’s voice because he has great and unsearchable things for me TODAY. He has divine moments set into motion for me to impact and bring his Kingdom to earth.
And so I am being challenged and in turn, challenging all who read this. I am willing to be vulnerable and share with all of you my thoughts, my fears, my doubts and my questions. Because the hour is urgent. We can’t just sit around and fill our minds and our spirits with empty, useless crap because there will be times when something just comes up, when an opportunity to bring heaven to earth is standing right in front of you. And if you have not filled yourself with the Spirit and his fruit and his Kingdom, what do you have to offer?
The world, AMERICA, does not need another Christian who can’t change or do anything to help. We don’t need another Christian who can promote himself with catchy songs or comfortable messages. All of that is empty. And it is not what Christ intended for those who would follow him.
So, let’s start pressing into something that we may not see the outcome for yet. Let’s start planting more of the Spirit in our lives so that at the perfect time, we will be able to produce that which might change the world. We can’t do it alone…Will you do this with me?
