In the past month or so I have had a few dreams where I am back in the United States, at home after the race. The dreams seem so real that I can still feel it when I wake up. In every dream, I feel dissatisfied or wanting more. I find myself completely shocked that the race is actually over and feeling as though it went by way too fast. Everytime, I feel like there was something more I could have tapped into while on the race and that I had missed my opportunity.
So we have been back in Cambodia for about 3 days now and have definitely been keeping busy. But in the meantime, I have been praying into what these dreams mean. And I believe it is a confirmation and a continuation of something God began speaking to me at debrief. I have chosen to not take one second of this race for granted, even when I don’t feel like it. And this month is the test. I am discovering that the moments when I don’t feel like giving 100% are the moments I really need to press in. And what I have found is that after pressing in with a good attitude, especially when I don’t want to, God meets me exactly where I am at gives me supernatural joy and strength to love and serve others.
It blows me away because I find myself serving like I’ve never served before and loving my team like I’ve never loved them before. And there is no other explanation other than God.
This month our ministry looks a little different. We are all doing different jobs to help relieve stress and accomplish grunt-work for the staff at New Life Fellowship. I have had quite an assortment of jobs and interestingly there have been children at every one of my jobs. Like I said, this month is a test! But it exciting to see how God is challenging our team and taking us into a deeper place of servanthood. And he is using the children to teach us patience. Maybe he is wanting us to learn a lot more from them. He did say that unless we become like them, we will not inherit the kingdom of God. I may not want children of my own anytime soon, but I do want the Kingdom! God really does make everything worth it. He is so good.
Thank you all for your love and support. Your gifts and prayers have been amazing. I am almost fully-funded, which is very exciting! Praise God! My teammate, Andy, however is still in need of about 50% of his funds before April. If you would like to bless him or support him in any way, you can visit his blog by clicking HERE.
