I
have had a few people mention the part in my recent blog where I
said, “This is the first time on the race I have felt like I can
really contribute and that I have some type of strength in the
ministry.” I feel like I should explain that a little bit.
For
much of this trip I have been struggling with my place; whether it be
on the team or in ministry. I know I am the finance person for the
team, I don’t mind that at all; but I wanted to feel like I have more
of a part than that. In ministry, so many times, I feel useless; I
am not a gifted speaker, I don’t really lead games, and there are
others who are better with kids. Where does that leave me?
Not
feeling good enough or useful, so much of that is just lies or
insecurities. But those lies and insecurities start to sink in after
a while. You start to really question your worth. So this month,
getting to do office work, having some knowledge and experience, has
really been great. It helps to combat the lies that I have no place,
that I am useless to the team.
during
a nightly debrief session
much
love!
And
yes, Laurie, that title is for you:)
