Let me just put it out there that I have commitment issues….
The only time I could say that I am committed is when I am too comfortable to move. Commitment masks my comfort and makes it seem righteous, when in fact it isn't. When things get sticky or uncomfortable, my commitment usually waivers and I start to question if I am supposed be where I am.
While in Swaziland, I listened to a sermon series suggested to me by by a friend, presented by Christine Caine, founder of the A21 campaign fighting against human trafficking. She talked about "One Way" missionaries during the 18th century. They were called "One Way" missionaries because when they left they knew that they weren't turning back. She said that on the grave of one "one way'er" it read: when he came, there was no light. When he left, there was no darkness. What a crazy legacy to leave. Oh that it would be said of me!
I am reminded of other missionaries who packed their belongings in a coffin because they knew that they weren't coming back. I am reminded of the Moravian missionaries even went so far as to sell themselves into slavery for the sake of the Gospel, so that those enslaved might be set free. And as they went, the cry "worthy is the Lamb that was slain to receive the reward of His suffering."
I began to wonder if the advances in technology and transportation transportation have affected the commitment of modern-day missionaries? Nowadays we can be connected to practically every country in the world, while still being in the comforts of our own homes, lacking real commitment. I am guilty of this as well. I like to straddle the fence without having to make any real (long term) commitment.
While in China, I met a young (20 years old) missionary who was committed. After talking to him about his plans for the future he said that he would be graduating from the Chinese school in 5 years. I then asked, then what? I expected him to say that he would then return home, get married, and have a family and go on with life. However, he said I will probably be in China for the next 10 to 20 years. It was something that took me back. The level of commitment, to a specific people group, at such a young age, astounded me and made me question my level of commitment to not only sharing the gospel, but ultimately to Christ. Am I committed like Jesus was… until death (Philippians 2:8)? Would I truly be committed to do whatever my King tells me to do, wherever He calls me to go? He is worthy!
Thought:
David Livingstone, "If a commission by an earthly king is considered a honor, how can a commission by a Heavenly King be considered a sacrifice?"
