So, you may or may not be able to tell from my lack of posting, but I struggle to blog. And blogging consistently? Forget about it.
In my life anyway, it seems as though not blogging is less of a discipline v. legalism issue and more of a heart issue.
I don’t like people to see me process, because that is messy and most times it’s just a big ball of weird up there in my head and once it mixes with my heart whatever comes out usually ends up looking like… EW.
I don’t mind sharing a full thought after I’ve thought something through, but I don’t like the middle part. I was telling God that, and He was like “well, it’s a good thing your blog is about me, and not about you, huh??” Ouch. Okay. Thanks for that.
After I got that word, my excuse for not posting was ‘My life is just not that interesting. I wake up, go to work, come home, and watch vlogbrothers videos, go to bed and wake up and do it all over again. Why would anyone want to read about that?’
But God was working all the while (because He’s like, you know, GOD), and I didn’t say anything about what He was doing. Then, I was convicted but still managed to procrastinate posting.
And then I went to Zimbabwe. And God showed up and I witnessed the closest thing to a miracle I’ve ever experienced!
And still, I didn’t post…
And then I went to Haiti. And the Lord met us there and student’s hearts were changed!
STILL NO POST??
In short, this post is less a story about my TOTALLY LEGITIMATE REASONS excuses for not posting and more about purpose.
I was created to reflect God’s glory. Period. Whatever that may look like, it’s my purpose. Reflecting the Father will win people for the Kingdom.
So, if God is working, I should be reflecting, right?
Right.
And if God isn’t working, then…wait. God is ALWAYS working (can I get an ‘Amen!’) so I should ALWAYS be reflecting!!
And if I’m not reflecting the glory of God, then I’m not fulfilling my purpose.
If I’m keeping what the Lord is doing in my life to myself, what is what I am reflecting worth?
Nothing. That’s what.
If I believe today that God is the same God He was yesterday, and will be the same God tomorrow (which I do), then it shouldn’t matter that I’m in Abilene (freaking) Texas working a job that I won’t be working in 2 weeks watching an unhealthy amount of Youtube!!
Because God is working. Therefore, I should be reflecting.
And if I’m not doing that here and now, what makes me think I’m going to do it in Bulgaria 9 months?
If my heart and mind are not in a rhythm of reflecting God’s glory then I cannot logically expect for that to be my rhythm while I’m on the Race.
And the Race, like this blog, is not about me. It’s about the Kingdom.
“They shall speak of the glory of your kingdom and tell of your power,
to make known to the children of man your mighty deeds,
and the glorious splendor of your kingdom.
Your kingdom is an everlasting kingdom, and your dominion
endures throughout all generations.
The Lord is faithful in all his words and kind in all his works.”
~Psalm 145:11-13
