January 15, 2015
Psalm 37:7 “Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him.”
Post training camp has led to launch preparation. We have continued to work with our teams and develop relationships together. We have had daily team meetings to share information about our stories and to provide feedback. The feedback is powerful. We are able to compliment each other on how the Lord is using each other, and we are also able to speak truth and light into each other over how the enemy is attacking our hearts. As the year progresses, I look forward to how the Lord uses this team time and team feedback to strengthen our gifts and refine each of us into the daughters He wants to mold us into. On Friday, we will be given our ministries for the rest of the month. We will be given time to learn about the tasks and how to minister to the people. I look forward to seeing how the Lord will use each of my teammates but also our squad. More info to come on this!
Last night, we had a creative worship session. Creative worship is something that is new to me. My eyes have been opened to different areas of worship. Worship to me has always been singing, clapping, praying and raising a hand or two. Worship now includes dancing, shouting, drawing, writing, and intercession. It was a freeing and beautiful time with my WR family, but more importantly with Jesus.
Art worship was comfortable to me just because I love crafts, but when we entered the dancing session, I was apprehensive. I remember as I closed my eyes and admitted to the Lord that I was nervous and felt awkward…he spoke. He said, “It is okay to feel awkward. Just rest in me.” And as I let my hands relax, I saw him walk toward me. It was a sweet experience. I just cried as I danced with my Savior. I felt so at peace and cared for. He continued to speak… “Rest.”
As I processed this idea of rest…what a powerful word that I needed to hear. I think I make my relationship with Jesus too complicated and too much work. Yes he calls us to serve and work for His Kingdom, but He first calls me to LOVE HIM. I must rest in this truth first before I love and serve others. I think I was caught up in the work, in the ‘what do I do next,’ in the ‘what can I do’ mentality. I laid those chains and thoughts before the Lord last night. I want to enjoy the relationship with the Lord. I want to be still in His love, and then out of the outpouring of that, serve others.
Prayers as I move forward:
-Enjoy dancing with the Father. Rest in Him every day.
-Open up to my team—be vulnerable and willing to share what is on my heart. Also have boldness in sharing feedback with them.
-The Lord would reveal my sweet spot identity. The leaders have asked us to develop a list of things that we are passionate about, good at and needed for ministry (these areas can intersect into a ‘sweet spot’ for each of us). Pray that I will develop an understanding of the sweet spot the Lord has prepared me to serve in.
-I would be willing to take risks in ministry. Try new things. Be completely dependent and led by the Holy Spirit.
