I can’t believe that I’ve been in Thailand for over 2 weeks. Each day I am being fed truth. Each day I am experiencing God in new ways. Each day I feel more and more of His presence and love.
This blog is a glimpse into my journal. A view of the teachings that the Lord has been working on within my Spirit. Enjoy!
Voice:
The Lord has shone me that He speaks in many ways. I don’t have to worry if He doesn’t say ‘words’ in my Spirit. He can use visions. He can use silence. He can use people. He can use songs.
I shouldn’t limit His abilities to speak to me, because it might not be delivered in an expected package.
Humility:
I realized that I had a strong desire to be a leader on my team. However, my desire to be a leader wasn’t motivated by truth. I wanted control. I desired a title. I thought if I had a title, I would be valued and appreciated for my abilities. I thought that my leadership abilities from home entitled me to leadership roles here on the race.
Well…I received some humble pie. There was a whole session on Servant Leadership and the desire for control versus humbling serving each other. The Lord convicted me of my mindset and motive for leading. I realized that I can celebrate everyone’s leadership abilities, and that each of us would be a leader.
I am still valued as a person (whether given a title or not). I am still needed on the team (whether given a title or not). I will be used by God (whether given a title or not). I am still loved by God (whether given a title or not).
I pray that I continue to walk with humility. Looking for ways to serve others before myself. I pray that the Lord teaches me first to be a servant. I pray that the Lord continues to show me my identity in Him isn’t dependent on a title or given role, but the only title I need is: Daughter of the King.
Motto:
Love God. Seek the Kingdom.
Simple, right? This is a motto that the Lord is working on me with. It goes back to my last blog (That Awkward First Dance). I need to live simply. To love Him. Then to seek His kingdom. I just need to ask for love. Love and light in my heart, so that the darkness is removed. Then His light and love will lead me to serve His Kingdom and His people.
Change:
I must change first, so that I can change the world. If I’m broken, I am not in a spot to be used to mend. If I’m not healed, I am not in a spot to heal. I pray that the Lord would change me, daily. I pray that He would continually renew my mind and heart to reflect Him (instead of my flesh).
Choice:
Many aspects of the Christian walk boil down to choice. What kind of attitude will your choose to have? What kind of servant will you choose to be? What kind of words will you choose to use?
The Lord affirmed this as we studied Deuteronomy 30:19-20.
“This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live and that you may love the Lord your God, listen to his voice, and hold fast to him. For the Lord is your life, and he will give you many years in the land he swore to give to your fathers, Abraham, Isaac and Jacob.”
As I asked the Lord to speak to me about these verses, he gave me a vision of a railroad track splitting into two directions. I was reminded that I had a choice. Which path would I choose? Life or death? Blessings or curses? Freedom or bondage?
Love:
It has taken me 16 years to write this out: I AM LOVED. I am accepted by God because of what Jesus did, not based on my actions.
After a whole page of journaling during worship, the Lord spoke those 3 sweet words: I AM LOVED. If we can grasp His love for us, what a mighty force we will be. As He expands the love in our hearts, we will have so much to give away. This love in our hearts will remove darkness and death. This love will speak life, light and truth.
Prayers:
-We will be doing city ministry in Chiang Mai this next week, then moving into the villages for the last week of January. Pray for obedience. Pray for open ears, open eyes and listening hearts. Pray for humility. Pray for God’s Spirit to move (even if that’s just planting seeds).
