Friday was really hard for me.
Zach G, Tikki, and I were given a cold water bottle to give to someone to who we felt the Spirit was leading us to. Immediately after leaving the store we saw a disabled man laying in a chair, I felt the Spirit and we knew this was the person. We began to talk to him about his life to learn he was from Myanmar, his leg has been disabled since he was 5 years old, and he was a CHRISTIAN. I decided after talking for a few minutes that the Spirit was leading me to pray healing over this man’s leg. I prayed big prayers over this man I had such a huge desire to see God perform a miracle but after the first prayer nothing happened so, I prayed again nothing happened. Then, Tikki prayed and nothing happened. That really upset us we had so much faith that God would heal that man and it did not happen.
Over the past few days i’ve learned that even though things didn’t go as I wanted I can’t let my confidence in the Father dwindle. Matthew 6:10 says “ May your Kingdom come soon. May your will be done on earth, as it is in heaven.” Growing up I just remember saying this verse during the Lord’s prayer and moving on. Until this situation I have never actually let that verse take root in my heart. In heaven there is nothing God can’t do, so his goal for us is to pray that just like how in heaven there are no obstacles that we would think the same on earth. Some people say “Your will be done” with an attitude because to them God’s will isn’t what they want to hear. Yes, I was upset at God for a moment but I’ve learned now that I am going to say “Your will be done” with a heart of devotion to him.Whatever Your will is I am all in God, Help me when I struggle to understand, or receive Your will.” I’ve also learned that the Father’s Heart is for us to bring healing, which is ultimately showing them Christ physical or not. So yeah, that’s where I am at right now I’m going to continue surrender my desires at His feet and let His will take root.
We are getting ready start our last week of ministry at our current ministry site which is an orphanage for kids living with HIV/AIDS please pray for continued strength and perseverance this week.
