The World Race is coming to a close in a week and a half. What am I doing?
Feels like yesterday I was leaving my home to travel the world for eleven months. Has time really gone this fast?
I’ve experienced so much this past year. Have I really changed?
I’ve done so much this year. Have I really made a difference?
What have I done? What was I thinking? Who am I?
Honestly, I don’t know.
Not yet at least.
Before I travel back home, I will be spending three weeks in Italy to try and answer these questions. I don’t know what the answers are yet, at least not fully, but I know they’re there. This past week, God has been showing me what processing with Him will look like after the race. He’s been showing me that there’s still so much more to life with Him. He’s been showing me what life might look like in at least the near future.
So, I guess…
I’ll look back at everything that’s happened this past year to try and fully realize how long I’ve been traveling.
I’ll re-read my journals and notes to see my changing thoughts and personality.
I’ll remember the smiling faces of children around the world and read the dozens of thank you letters I’ve received to know the difference.
I’ll take some time to remember the miracles God’s done to comprehend what I’ve (more like He’s) done.
I’ll take some time to just be.
The post-race adjustment is different for every racer. Just know though, that this year has been the most amazing, hard, incredible and painful year of most of our lives up to this point, and we might not have all the answers yet; but we’re working on them.
So, what am I doing?
I’m not really sure. Just following Jesus, I guess.
God Bless!
-Ben
