Hey I know it’s so sudden, and I thought I would write about something less serious. you see over the years I have been chained down by a sin of mine. It was always in the way keeping me at bay. It was like I could never see the light of day. I knew freedom was very far away. If you ask me what I think of these chains I would tell you I put them on myself but I can’t get them off by myself. So I’m trying to humble myself so that maybe God would look down at me and set me free.
First of all I have to warn you this topic I’m about to get into is an elephant in the room. It’s not for children. Now that I can get back on topic this sin that I struggle with is quite common in most men today. I struggle with pornography, and I want to let you all know that it has been a burden that I carry. Some may not understand how terrible the addiction goes it leads you into areas so dark and so lonely. I wish I was never introduced to this hell. It’s been with me since elementary school. I’ve been hiding from people out of shame. I’ve watched multiple categories of porn that bring me more shame. When I say shame, I mean things that I’m afraid to talk about, but I’ve decided no longer will I hide under the covers and shove it all under the rug. I watched all so sadly some of the worst things and I won’t leave anything out.
teens
moms
sisters
animals
lesbians
group sex
You see this is the long term affect of diving deeper into the abiss of sin. The more you involve yourself with porn the less you feel morally about it all. You become familiar with all that dirt and grime. It ruins you and eventualy there is nothing you can do to stop yourself. You will lose self control. So moms and dads out there if you catch your kids in the act of this, try not to make them feel shame, they’ll just retreat back to it. Never give up on them. If they continue to Persue this. Show them love and I’ll just let you know if you don’t know or have forgotten, love is patient.
Now to the point of the title lately I’ve been porn free. I haven’t watched it in the last month, and I feel like this blog is my next step toward repentance. It’s with this that I feel freedom. Although I’m at the door to leave, I’m waiting for someone to come pick me up. someone who has the keys to my chains. No it’s not any man or women, but it is my God who is coming with key. I feel him coming very soon to set me free. So it is exciting to finally feel that freedom that has been so hard fought for. Thank you for reading. I hope that maybe through this maybe there are some people who struggle with this and find influences to escape their cell. Remember run to God and he will always welcome you.
