Well, the last blog I wrote was on my struggle to find out what true, godly brotherhood is all about.
It has still been a struggle, but I have hope and trust that the Lord knows what he is doing. Thats what this blog is about.
A few days after my first conversation with Joshua about this, I had several more and then one day, we both were like, “What is the deal between us? Why does it feel like we have digressed in our friendship?”
The answer to that question is found in this Scripture:
“Thus says the Lord, Your Redeemer, who formed you from the womb:
‘I am the Lord, who makes all things, who alone stretched out the heavens, who spread out the earth by myself, who frustrates the signs of liars, and makes fools of diviners, who turns wise men back and makes their knowledge foolish, who confirms the word of his servant and fulfills the counsel of his messengers, who says of Jerusalem, “She shall be inhabited,” and of the cities of Judah, “They shall be built, and I will raise up their ruins;” who says to the deep, “Be dry; I will dry up your rivers;” who says of Cyrus, “he is my shepherd. and he shall fulfill all my purpose;” saying of Jerusalem, “She shall be built,” and of the temple, “Your foundation shall be laid.”‘”
Isaiah 44:24-28
As Joshua and I were talking about that, he turned to that Scripture and it just spoke so much to both of us. That God is tearing us down back to our foundations as friends in order to build us up in the proper way. That God is “[raising] up [our] ruins” and laying our foundations as they should be.
As we were talking about this, another Scripture came to my mind and it also seemed applicable.
“‘And the one who falls on this stone will be broken to pieces; and when it falls on anyones, it will crush him.'”
Matthew 21:44
When I read that verse, I saw it as I never have before. That when we fall on Christ and rely on Him, he breaks us so that he can remake us into who He has created us to be, but if He comes down on us, we are ground to dust, aka, no more.
This is what God has been doing in me this month, tearing me down, back to my foundations so that He can build me up in the way that He created me to be. So many lies from the enemy have come against me this month that I haven’t really known what to do with myself. I’ve been so confused as to my identity in Christ and thats something I definitely don’t want.
So all this to say that, my hope is in the Lord and I know that I can trust in Him. He is allowing me to go through the fire in order to test my faith and make it stronger.
