Well, I officially do have Mono and have been out of work and basically out of everything else for the entire week after having had a few weeks prior of little sleep, obviously due to mono. I had a slammed week, work wise and in the midst of my suffering and asking God to heal my body, I ask, What is it that God is trying to teach me through this?
I’m so worried about all my loans, all my debt, reaching the fundraising debt of $16,000, and the thousands of dollars worth of equipment i need, that i just feel as if I cannot afford to be taking an entire week off of multiple jobs. I just cannot figure it out in my head.
Yes, I am supposed to be fully trusting in God to provide for all my needs if this world race is where he has called me. No, I cannot be lackadaisy in working to do my part in terms of raising finances. Maybe i was pushing myself a little too hard, but I just can’t figure out how that is a bad thing?
Idk. I really just do not know what to think about this, besides to make the pain and suffering go away! Where is the hallowed middle ground in this situation?
