Finally, our launch information has arrived! Our squad will be leaving the United States at 6:00pm on July 11th from JFK airport. Admittedly, I had had my mind set on a July 1st launch date for so long (almost six months) that when I found out we were leaving July 11th, I almost felt let down. I didn’t understand what the “hold up” was for, and why both God and AIM couldn’t simply let us leave on the first of the month.
In my sinful thinking (Romans 1:28), I immediately began to scour my brain for possible reasons why we could be leaving “late”. Did God see that there was a squadmate that was not yet spiritually prepared? Did AIM see that there was a squadmate that was not financially prepared? Oh, how wrong I was. God brought me out of my depraved line of thinking and brought me to three very simple and succinct conclusions.
- If there is indeed a member on our squad that is not quite spiritually prepared to leave, it is I. This was definitely a humbling conclusion to come to. If there is anyone on our squad who tangibly and visibly lags behind his or her teammates in his or her ability to be pliable – to recognize that his role is the clay and God’s role is the potter (Isaiah 29:16) – that person would be me. I say this not for the purpose of being intentionally humble or self-deprecating, but most truthfully because it appears to be the case. I could use every extra day possible to ask God for the ability to humble myself.
- I do not need to see a reason for leaving when we do and God does not need to provide one. His ways our higher than my ways (Isaiah 55:9). God has an understanding and an insight so intricate that it would be silly for me to question it or even attempt to comprehend it. For all I know, God is keeping us in the United States for an extra ten days so that during those ten days a squadmate of mine can share the Gospel with a woman in a Burger King and that that woman will go on to lead thousands to Christ sixteen years down the road.
- God is actually not late. One of my favorite quotes is, “Where we see time, God sees timing.”
God is right on time. 28 days and counting!
