“The Tapestry of flowers in bloom rolling into waves of limonium and Baby’s breath,
Beams of Sunlight breaking through dark circles in the hills that overlook the valley,
The Sweet Chestnut and grand willow trees dance graciously with the wind”
This morning I took into account all these familiar sights and more. As my training camp and launch day soon approaches I am more at peace with leaving then ever before. I have witnessed the seasons this year that God has walked me through with a trust in my uncertainty and HIS goodness. Today I can say that I see him blessing my curiosity with a peaceful and mighty answer. Familiar and far beyond. God’s love stretches to the ends of the earth. His provision is carried throughout my life.
Most recently I was talking with JJ about what it would be like to adjust back into life coming home. Back to my tapestry of flowers, sunlight and willow trees, whom day after day fulfilled my drives. How unfamiliar they would be to me after 9 month. I questioned what the drive home would feel like and every moment after reentering country. I can’t say that it is easy for me to picture all my known and unknown sights filling each other’s role. Nor is it easy to quiet my mind with all the questions I have Jesus about how he will bring me back into my country with the heart he developes in me over seas.
I look back into my experience in Haiti, how in two 10 day trips, Christ was able to grow my heart to bleed/weep/desire the missions field more so than any passion I have ever sought. God then brought me out of my comfort and slowly unfolded his plan for me toward World Race. I look back now and recognize that with every passing conversation and day, He brought people to me to touch my heart and strengthen it for the Children and poverty outside my nation. Not only because others wanted to know about my experience but that God was refreshing and reminding me of his role in it. With every opportunity this year that I have had to be a light. Fundraise and seek work with children, God has reminded me of what can be done in his name. He has kept it thick on my heart to push me through all the hardship that I have endured while home.
Now I look to God, with any worries or questions I have. Most important though, I am at peace with where he has me. I have seen what he has done before and I stand in faith, for he will do it again. I know nothing that he is carrying out in me could ever be done on my own, if it was not in his name. I consider it a Blessing, for God has grown me so much this year In wisdom, strength and knowledge. All for his goodness. Psalms 90:2, “Lord, you have been our dwelling place throughout all generations. 2 Before the mountains were born or you brought forth the whole world, from everlasting to everlasting you are God.” Not only do I trust my days BEFORE ME to him but I trust that his plans for me that aren’t in my view are fully in his. Because my God is everlasting.
~Bella
