Okay. So I don’t like mud. At all.
And within the first few minutes that we were in Po Peyl, the Lord started showing me that I would be very uncomfortable for a little while. Not only was mud everywhere because it was raining earlier. But my bag had kinda fallen in some mud….so it too had mud on it. Lovely.
But all I could do was laugh. I mean, the girl who doesn’t like mud is the only one who has mud all over her stuff.
So immediately, the Lord started teaching me some things.
The next day it poured. And I mean poured.
And I discovered a fun fact.
Are you ready for this?
Fun Fact #1: Bekah’s tent leaks. Hardcore. Like “puddles inside the tent” leaks.
So I quick-grabbed all of my stuff, and put it in the center. And I just laughed. I couldn’t help it. I mean, of course this would happen. It’s really not a big deal though. Roll with the punches, right?
As the week progressed, I watched my other teammates working around the compound. And I joined them in working as well. But I guess I was just comparing what they were doing with what I was doing. And so I started feeling like they were working harder than I was….I started playing the comparison game. (Dangerous ground to be on.) And as a result of that, I started feeling useless. And questioning why exactly I was here. I don’t know. It’s been hard.
I shared that with my team on Friday night. And they encouraged me that I have gifts the Lord has given me and I’m valuable on the team. But later that night as I went to bed and Saturday morning, I was talking with the Lord about my feelings. And He’s helping me recognize the lie that I’ve been believing for so long. For so long.
Early in the week I asked the Lord to break the chains that the enemy has placed on my life….ones that I’ve been struggling to escape from. And He’s faithful to answer my prayers. He’s breaking them in crazy awesome ways–including helping me recognize lies that I’ve been believing. He’s giving me courage and boldness to love people. And He’s helping me press into my team and love them well.
So. Mud. It’s gross.
But.
It’s such a reminder of God’s grace in my life. He’s stretching me. He’s changing me. He’s pulled me right out of my little tiny comfortable box. And He’s showing me how to live a fuller, richer life. (One full of Him.)
Please pray for us as we go back to the village. Pray the Lord would continue to work and move in our hearts and in the hearts of the villagers around us. Pray the Spirit would draw people to Himself. Pray that my team would continue to be bold in how we live life in the village. Pray for doors to be open for the gospel. Pray that we would continue to love one another well.
Also, just for fun…
Fun Fact #2: I have had three spiders crawl on me this week. And one three-legged spider chase me during Bible study. Blessing, our contact’s kitten, caught and ate the three-legged spider.
