The day had come for me to say goodbye to my parents and hello to my new family for the next year. As I boarded the plane from Boston to Chicago I was filled with a million emotions but mostly excitement. Yet, when I got to the first worship session we had something weird happened. It’s hard to explain but I felt as if my body was present yet my spirit/mind was watching from afar. This feeling continued for the next couple of days. I quickly became concerned and thought to myself “how in the world can I be going on this missions trip for the next year and my heart not be present.” Well our last night at the hotel our squad coordinator, Ryan, spoke about the power of the Lord. As he is powering his heart out sharing his testimony my heart was heavy and I didn’t understand want was happening to me. At the end of he asked us to pray for ourselves or anyone the Lord placed on our hearts.
I begin to pray and I just ask God to show me that he hears me. I know that God is faithful but for some reason I have always felt that God does not hear me (crazy I know). As I was praying I begin to sob LOUD. My teammate began to pray for me and then my squad leader came over. As all this is going on my body got completely hot and I could not stop crying. They were praying FREEDOM over me. The Lord was breaking the chains that have kept me from true freedom. I had chains wrapped around my heart that needed to be broken. For years I believed that I was not good enough. I always believed that I was not worthy of anything good. I let all these lies infect my heart and built up a wall that didn’t let anything or anyone in. God told me that I was worthy, that he has wiped away my sins, he has cleansed my heart and made it pure. Slowly the chains were breaking and it physically hurt. With every tear I shed a piece of the chains were falling off. For the first time in a long time I can truly say I AM FREE. I WILL NOT BELIEVE ANY LIE THAT IS SPOKEN INTO MY LIFE. FREEDOM REIGNS IN THIS PLACE.
