The last couple of days have been weird for me and to be honest a little difficult personally. I love the Philippines and I love the ministry we are working with yet my heart has been elsewhere. It’s crazy that I miss my friends and family more this month than I did last month (Christmas time).
These last couple of days have caused me to think about why I came on this race, asking if I was truly meant to be here. What is the purpose of a missions trip around the world in eleven months. Why did I leave my family, friends, comforts, etc. to get bitten up by bugs, take cold showers, not communicate with my loved ones???
Tonight I got to the dinner table a little early and had all those thoughts in my head so I decided to put my headphones on and listen to some music. A song called Cristo Yo Te Amo (Jesus I love you) began to play and as the song continued to play tears began to stream down my face. It hit me!!! I came on this race because I love Jesus, I am in love with Jesus and I want others to experience this great love. Matthew 28:19-20 states “Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the son and the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always to the very end of age.” John 15:12 also states “My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s own life for one’s friends.” As believers we are commanded to go out and make disciples portraying God’s love throughout the nations.
To be honest I am happy that I had these crazy, weird feelings because I am now able to appreciate the call that God has for my life while on this race. A simple song with the words “Cristo Yo te amo, no hay nadie como tu Jesus, no se a donde estubiera si yo a ti no tu tuviera, si no hubiera conocido al Dios que me Ama” (Jesus I love you, there is no one like you, I don’t know where I would be if I would have not met the God that loves) made me realize the true purpose of my race.
