The idea of this blog post came to me the other night during a worship session. I started crying when I heard these lyrics from the song Open Heaven by Hillsong Worship: “here in your presence Lord I surrender to your glory for your glory…”
I am going on the World Race… AND yes, I have a boyfriend.
From signing up for the World Race, to being at training camp, and even to the point of being at launch, I have been made fun of and negatively judged for having a boyfriend AND going on the race. “Why would you do that?”, “You aren’t supposed to have a boyfriend on the race I thought”, to “that is going to be SO hard…goodluck…” are just some of the voices I’ve heard. (SIDE NOTE: That isn’t to say that I don’t have wonderful amazing, supportive people in my life, because I do!!)
YES, I have a boyfriend… and No… it’s not stupid.
In my opinion, to leave him and our relationship behind for a year…I think, it takes a lot of courage. I think it’s fair to say that this is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do.
I am surrendering myself, my wants, and needs for the glory of God. In my opinion, I am giving up more than I would have if I was single. And guess what?!…I know that God will provide for me even more because of it. I am being obedient and I am listening to my heavenly Father. I have been sad about leaving I’m not going to lie, but I trust that God has my heart and will comfort me along the way.
Jesus says It best: “Anyone who intends to come with me has to let ME lead. You’re not in the driver’s seat, I am. Don’t run from suffering, embrace it. Follow me and I’ll show you how. Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to find yourself, your true self.” – Matthew 16:24-25 (Emphasis added)
It is hard…it’s really really hard BUT I AM GOING TO BE OKAY.
I am committed to God, this trip, and my journey. BUT at the same time, I am committed to my boyfriend and I want to see this through. I am trusting in the process.
Please continue to pray for me and this crazy journey. You can specifically be praying that I keep my trust in Jesus and that I stay present in what I am doing in the moment.
IMPORTANT NOTE: I understand that some people whom are reading my blog may not be a Christian or a person of the faith. That is OK! Repeat: THAT IS OKAY!! I love you and accept you for who you are and appreciate your support no matter what. You can pray for me, or think about me, or send me good vibes in whatever way you please. They are all welcomed and greatly appreciated.
Thank you for reading and I love you all!
Blessings,
Becca
