Obedience!
Wow this word! So many mixed feelings about this word.
I use to H A T E this word. It made me feel so trapped. It made feel like I had to be someone I wasn’t. I’ve always been a wild child since I was young (my mom can attest to this…ha!) Obedience has never been my strong suit. I’ve always been labeled as a “rule breaker”. This label has always given me an edge and has made me feel special. It made me stand out. When someone would tell a group of people to do something and everyone did it, I’d be that one person to do the opposite just to stand out.
Obedience. The theme of my World Race.
Man, God is really changing my heart regarding my view of obedience. Let me tell you: be careful for what you ask for!! (;
There have been so many opportunities this past year that God has given me to rewire how I think about obedience.
Let me tell you about one of these “opportunities”.
So, at the beginning of the Race we had a chance to purchase a key on a necklace that had a prayed over/ prophetic word printed on it. This word was supposed to be our “key for the journey” and once we finally figured out the meaning of the word for our lives, we were called to give away the key.
My key said: DEPTH
When I saw this, I became OBSESSED right away. I thought, dang this just fits me. Over the past 7 months I’ve become so attached to my key that there was no way I was going to give it away. And I expressed this multiple times (ask my teammates ha!)
However, God had other plans.
So on Sunday, our last day in Novi Sad, I was sitting in church and I had a thought: give your key to this person (a person that was a member of the church). I was like what the heck, this was NOT my voice OR idea. There is no way I’d think such a thing, because remember I DID NOT want to give my key away. So I said: God if this is really you, I need you to confirm it. I need you either to have this person say the word depth or directly ask me about my key (note: I was wearing it.)
Well can you guess what happened next?
That dang person asked me about my key!! Wow ok God I see you. Now I was torn: do I listen to God or do I listen to my own selfish desire of keeping the key….
This right here is how I know God is changing my heart: I decided to give my key away.
The old Becca, hands down, would of kept her key and ignored God.
I am crying tears of joy as I write this. NO JOKE!
I know you’re probably thinking Becca it’s just a key. But for me, it was way more. The act of giving away my key represented freedom. It was a statement that I AM in fact changing and God is doing big things in my life. It was a sign that God is so powerful and can change anything you’re willing to surrender to him.
I no longer am holding onto the label of being disobedient or the “wild child”. I am choosing to be obedient to my God and that’s the most important lesson I can learn.
Thank you God for changing my heart.
