these past couple weeks have gone by so quickly, it’s almost like I’m missing this country already. I really love it here, gosh, I could stay forever. something God showed me a couple days ago is how to follow him with an “of course”. my squad and I were out worshipping with our light up speaker under the hundreds of stars in the Cambodian sky and we played the song So Will I. if you’ve read my earlier blogs, you’ll know So Will I has really impacted me in the past as well but God used it again this time. I was looking up at the stars, surrounded by other women of God worshipping with their whole hearts, and I just felt so small yet so loved by my Creator. I was singing, “if the stars were made to worship so will I,” and I was thinking, “of course I will, how could I not?” the same thought ran through my head as we sang the bridge,
If the stars were made to worship so will I
If the mountains bow in reverence so will I
If the oceans roar Your greatness so will I
For if everything exists to lift You high so will I
If the wind goes where You send it so will I
If the rocks cry out in silence so will I
If the sum of all our praises still falls shy
Then we’ll sing again a hundred billion times
this concept has really stuck with me this whole week. if I catch myself feeling frustrated or disappointed about something that doesn’t really matter, I stop and remind myself, “heck no, this is not going to mess with me. I’m going to worship instead. of course i will.” in everything, I can give God an “of course” and he’ll work wonders.
speaking of wonders, Niye is a blind woman we visited the first week of ministry and we were able to visit again last week. she told us that ever since we came and taught her what prayer was and how to pray, she’s prayed every night and she feels at peace and strengthened and safe. she also go some Bible recordings and listens to them daily. she asked us to come one day and do mini-church with her because she can’t walk to church by herself. we went and shared a bunch of scripture with her a listened to some worship songs in khmer and prayed together. it was a wonderful example of being the church. I was also able to see how God works when we aren’t around. something the speakers stressed at training camp was that we aren’t bringing God to these places, he is already here. he uses us to further his story, but he’s still the author. we visited Niye once the first week and had a good talk, she asked some questions, and we prayed for her. I felt good about that visit but I didn’t think we had completely changed her heart or anything. we came back a week later and now she believes in Jesus? that’s insane. straight crazy. couldn’t happen with just one conversation but God kept working on her heart and answering her prayers even after we’d left. she told us that through the week she was even able to walk to a friend’s house because God held her hand and led her. the wildest thing is I didn’t realize all that God had done for her until I texted my friend, Jocy, about it. I sent an update to her then sat back and thought about what I’d just sent and how blessed I am to see this first-hand and have this be my normal life.
a few last things to update you on, we finished digging our fish pond! now we are setting up posts to build a wall around it to keep children from falling in. I’ve found a couple snack I love; reverse Oreos that taste like fudge stripes and chicken sausage filled with white cheddar. shout-out to Mary, my big sister who I really love, Anna, God’s freaking masterpiece, and Madi, who’s got so much depth to her beautiful person. that’s all I’ve got for this blog, thanks for reading it and praying for me!
