Undeniable and unexplainable peace…where did you come from?
I’ve been anxiety ridden, stressed, frightened, controlling, heart broken, and untrusting the last few weeks preparing to leave.
I tried to write a blog post last night and had no good words to share. So I deleted it.
I went to bed last night(the last night in my own bed for the next 11 months)with such an overwhelmed heart.
God did some crazy, miraculous work overnight while I slept. I honestly don’t know even know what?! I woke up unafraid. I woke up with JOY. I woke up with excitement. And every move closer to getting on this plane I just got more and more excited and hope filled. I can’t explain it. It’s the most peaceful I’ve ever felt in my entire life. It’s like God took all those tangled up feelings and fears and washed them all away while I slept soundly in my bed.
…as I sit here on this plane moving further and further away from my home and everyone I love…I thought I would be beyond heart broken and a mess…but I’m the exact opposite.
“I’m ready God. I stepped out. I’m making my way out on that water and keeping my eyes on You all the way, may I not lose focus as I strive to live an abandoned life. I’m no longer grasping for anything. Letting it all go. Don’t let me make a single move without you. Move my feet. Thank you for loving me and choosing me for this. Please help me and my entire squad to go boldly into this adventure and abandon all! I love you so much and I can’t wait to see all you have in store”
Matthew 14|29 (NIBV aka New International Becca Version)
He said, “Come ahead.” Jumping out of the boat, Becca walked on the water to Jesus.
{{ posting this while sitting in the Atlanta airport, waiting on one of the girls on my team to get here so we can venture out together }}
