I apologize for not writing a blog on the happenings in Nepal last month.. I honestly was overloaded with revelation, sickness, and 50 squadmates. I can give a brief recap of the month and share my heart and what the Lord revealed to me in Nepal and then I will travel on to Cambodia and share what the Lord is doing here 🙂
NEPAL Month #2 (Side note: I know you all want to know what I am doing in ministry but I also want to include you in my spiritual growth. I have realized that God didn’t lead me here to make a huge impact on these nations but to plant little seeds that will grow and in the midst of planting seeds and praying they grow strong, I, myself, am growing. I want you on this journey with me in every way you possibly can be. So, I will share my ministry, spiritual growth, AND my heart with you, always)
I will be honest. Nepal was HARD. It was absolutely beautiful and breathtaking and the people were amazing, however, I struggled. I struggled spiritually, physically, emotionally, mentally, and SOCIALLY. Nepal was all squad month which means my entire squad of 50 people stayed in one house together. The room I slept in was filled with 13 other women sharing one bathroom. The introverted side of Becca was screaming on the inside. Living in community really surfaced the issues of my heart.
I did a lot in my ministry last month, many prayers were answered, sicknesses were healed, I had the privilege of ministering to a beautiful young woman who was trapped in the sex industry, I got to walk miles and miles through the muddy Himalayas to a hidden shelter where many people who lived there suffered homelessness due to the earthquakes. We got to play with kids, pray for leadership, and spend time with the Nepali folk. Ministry was beautiful, however, when I look back upon Nepal I think about the change that occurred within, the revelation that was given, and heart issues that surfaced. So much happened within me, I will never be the same. I realized last month that I do not truly accept God’s love for me, which makes it difficult to love myself and as a result of that, even harder to love those around me. God showed me that I try to earn his love. I view him as master and I the servant in a VERY unhealthy way. I KNOW God loves me but for some reason I feel the need to perform a certain way to earn it. It was a sad revelation but I am celebrating the fact that it happened month 2 of the race and I can now be healed of it and truly live in my Fathers embrace and learn to love myself along with those around me. Please be in prayer with me that I continue to walk in his love and freely accept it 🙂
CAMBODIA Month #3
I am still in awe that it is already month 3! CAMBODIA IS PERFECT. The second the wheels of the plane touched the scorching runway, I fell in love. Yes, it is hot. Yes, I sweat from my brows and upper lip now but every drop of sweat is worth it.
My team and I are staying in a home with a little family from India. Their ministry is a Youth Development Center that focuses on teaching English to the children of Kampong Cham. Their ultimate goal is to lead them to Jesus but they also have a strong burden on their heart to be a part of rebuilding the nation of Cambodia’s education system. Several people are unaware that there was a genocide here only 40 years ago. Millions of Cambodians were killed mostly because of their education, social status, and religion. They lost nearly all of their educators, doctors, and nurses leaving Cambodia’s younger generations without proper education, healthcare, and so much more. Our ministry contacts goal in Cambodia is to change that. To teach children and instill in them a desire to learn and then pray that they rise up to be strong warriors for God.
For ministry we go to a slum in Kampong Cham and start the morning off by bathing the children before we then teach them beginner English. We teach the alphabet, teach them songs, incorporate bible stories, and then we end the morning by giving them all a loaf of bread. We leave to eat lunch that was prepared for us by Maema, a beautiful Filipino woman, then we rest for a few before heading back to the slum to work with the children once again. In the evening we go to a private training center to teach more English to what appears to be more “privileged” children. I feel very unequipped for this task but I know the Lord will guide and direct my teaching. Be praying that the students see Jesus in me and know in their hearts that I am there for many reasons other than teaching them English. Pray that I am able to impact their lives in the short 10 days that I will be working with them in more ways that just teaching them English. Pray that they see Jesus in me and that he is glorified through the work that I do this month.
Thank you so much for your support and for taking the time to keep up with me and my journey. I pray this email finds you well and as always, I love you.
