In just over 3 months, I will be leaving. I’ll be heading out into the mission field being a soldier for God’s Kingdom and going in full faith to wherever He leads me. It’s going to be different and challenging and far from home but I’m ready. I’m expecting God and ready for His movement this next year.
Being at home, I’m trying to prepare my heart and spirit for the ministries ahead but I can only imagine it so much. I can only picture what it will be like when I hold baby orphans in my arms for the first time. When I see them down and can cheer them up. Right now I can only picture the long nights of worship around campfires with my fellow missionaries and the movements God will provide. I can only imagine the healing and restoration that will come from pursing the Father on such a deep level.
But come just a few more months and these pictures will become reality. They will become my everyday tasks and the new normal for my life as it should be.
Every day that goes by is one less day with my friends and family but another day closer to God’s goodness. It’s bitter sweet but definitely more sweet.
“Set a fire in my soul that I can’t contain, that I can’t control. I want more of you God”.
God is calling me. He’s put that fire in my soul and is saying Come to Me, Wild and Free. He wants me and I want Him with reckless abandonment. In the last little bit of time before the launch date, He’s teaching me how the only way this will work, the only way He can use me and I can be the most effective for His glory, is if I have complete wild abandonment for His will for my life. I have to be willing to give up my current “normal” comfortable life and be willing to scream YES for His will even if it is a little scary and uncertain and seems somewhat impossible. The more daunting and impossible it seems, the more glory goes to the Father when He shows up! So, I’m saying goodbye to the old me and YES to all that God has!
