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The Need for Need

The need to be needed is a silent killer, yet so common among so many individuals in our world. Most of us would not like to look at our lives, and turn to someone admitting we are ‘needy’, but in reality being needy is not uncommon.

Many times we find our worth or our self confidence in the people we are surrounded by. We find our self image in the implications of others words, rather than in the mirror of God’s image. We find our credence in how others see our works, how well others think we performed a task at hand, and not in how we tried with the best we had to get the job accomplished. And when it comes to love, where do we find it….

This is where the need to be needed hits home for me. I love to love. Simply put. I love to give compassion to those who have never experienced it. I love to give a hug to a child that is without. I love to give grace to peers who feel they have made an irreversible mistake. I love to make someone feel they are the most important person in that very moment. I simply love to love. But along with that, I love to be loved. Love and need can often times be mix-matched and tangled up, but yet where and when do they become separate. Do we need to be needed if we want to be loved? Do we need to feel loved in order to feel needed? Many times I find myself in a place where I don’t know what it is I need, but I know I need something.

 Something to make me feel loved.

 Something to make me feel needed.

And then it hit me.

I was praying, asking God for comfort and peace. Asking for direction and wisdom. Asking Him to show me He was present because I was feeling a total void. And I heard myself say, “God, I need you. I need to feel your love.” And it is that simple. We want to know God is here, God is present and within us. We want to feel comfort, peace, free, and complete. We need him. But what is it He needs. He needs just the same.
 For us to need HIM.
 
 For us to love HIM.
 
 I began to ponder the idea of how if I thought of God as a person, a single individual, I would see how He wants to be needed and loved just as I do. I came to realize I tend to see God as this untouchable, forever wide, all knowing God. And while he is that, it made me think, then why does my little amount of love and need make a difference. Only He wants to be in relationship with me. Me personally. All it took was me to think of how much I long for those things to realize how little I give Him of those things.

So while yes, I enjoy being needed and loved, the more I fill God’s need for need and love, I’m pretty sure my tank will begin to overflow once more…