We showered out of buckets, slept on the floor, one day they even took away our forks and made us eat with our hands. Training camp is by no means comfortable. In fact, it’s the opposite. But maybe that’s what makes it so great…
Don’t get me wrong. Comfortable is nice, it’s airconditioned, usually involves real toilets and doesn’t make you talk to strangers. But comfortable doesn’t really accomplish much. It doesn’t push you to lean on your lord for all your strength.
God’s been breaking down my walls here at training camp. He’s been showing me how is in control over and over again. I’ve seen amazing prophecy, encouragement, and some extreme vulnerability all from my teammates. ( Update: I like them they’re great!) But I think my coolest story is this:
(Fair warning if you’re a skeptic or putting God in a box you’re probably not going to believe it, and that’s okay. This post is for the ones who don’t put God in a box and want to hear about the miracles.)
Before I left for training camp, I was asking God a lot of questions. Where should I move, what kind of job to get after I graduate, if I should go to Haiti and the DR…
To which God just said, “ I have hold of You and I’m Not Letting Go.”
It was sweet. But, not exactly the answer I was looking for. I more of wanted “ Everything is going to be okay, you’ll be safe and comfortable and do xyz…”
Last night during worship. I found myself worried again about my future and if God really was enough to fulfill me. I didn’t want to worry about this, but it just kept creeping through my mind. A guy from the back of the room then got up, walked around the room and started praying for people on the floor. When he got to me, he touched my back, then moved on to the next person. When he left, I could still feel a hand on my back. It was like I could tangibly feel Jesus’ hand on my back. To be honest I felt a little crazy. A few minutes later I went to my leader and had her pray over me.
The hand got stronger as she prayed. God was right there reminding me: “I have hold of you and I’m not letting go.”
After worship, I went back and told this guy about what had happened when he put his hand on my back. His mouth dropped and he said “ My arm felt numb from my elbow down, and I Just felt God telling me to touch everyone sitting on the floor and say in Jesus name.”
God is living and active people. He wants to draw near to you too! Also, when you get a little skeptical like me just remember; he has hold of you and he’s not letting go.
Well; that’s all for today folks! I’m off to Haiti tomorrow. God is going to do big things I know it!
