Written in March posted much later… (I wrote this in College Station, not at training camp. )
I sit here today not knowing exactly what to type or say to describe this season of life.
I’m actually very hesitant to put it all down on paper. But, I’m going to because I feel like God is teaching me something that a lot of people can relate to.
If you were to ask me a year ago if I would be where I am right now, If my life would look how it looks, I would have said I would’ve never imagined this all in a million years. Sometimes God changes our path, and we simply don’t understand why.
This past year has been a hard one. God completely and totally redirected my path.
Although it has been beautiful at times and he has provided me with such great hope for my new future, It still hurt. Some days I didn’t even want to get up. But, I did with the quiet strength of the Holy Spirit. Most days God not working in my timing or in my understanding still hurts my human heart, but the good news is I’m not the only person on the planet that did not understand what God was doing or what God was telling them.
In Daniel chapter 6, Daniel has a vision given to him by the Lord. A vision he didn’t understand and it deeply troubled his soul. He ends the passage by saying this:
“I, Daniel, was worn out. I lay exhausted for several days. Then I got up and went about the king’s business. I was appalled by the vision; it was beyond understanding.”
The world wore Daniel out. A man that faithfully followed the Lord. A man that was saved from a lion’s den by God the Almighty! A man that knew God, the best out of anyone at that time, was confused and worn out.
Well, Daniel. I’m right there with you. My heart is troubled, I’m confused, I’m worn out. But just like you, I choose will go on about the kings business.
And, so maybe that’s you today. Tired and worn out. And if that is you, let me just say, It’s okay to be confused. It’s okay to be worn out. It’s okay to not know what God’s doing. But, my prayer is that you have enough strength to get up and go on about the king’s business.
